Bereft (h.s)

70. A Friend.

Chapter 70

Harry's Pov.

1 Day Later

I walked into the hospital and immediately saw Matt waiting.

Last night I never got to see Alycia. Matt got to see her and apparently that was it. She was okay but he said when he went back, she was very tired and asked if she wanted to see anyone. She said no.

To say my anxiety shot right up at his words was an understatement. He said it was nothing to do with me, she just felt really bad.

I didn't go home but she asked Matt to go feed Jasper so I offered to do it. I still have her spare key so I walked him and fed him.

Being back in here apartment felt...different. It felt empty. I always felt like being in her apartment was a very safe place for me when I was with her. It was always warm and I always got the best sleep. Our morning were always so funny there too. But that's just it...it's because I was with her. It doesn't feel like home without her.

She is the warmth and the safe place. Not her apartment.

I'm not sure where we're to go from here and I don't have too high of expectations but...I just want to see her. I've been going crazy. I've gotten no sleep, which I don't mind. Nothing new. Although it is a lot harder when you're not on coke, or any drugs for that matter.

The pure panic in me the last 15 hours has kept me plenty awake.

I also have not seen Dylan again. Not that i'm complaining about that though. I just wonder if he's seen Alycia.

Jeff left last night but he said he's on his way back. He wants to see Alycia. He really has been there for her. In ways I should've been but wasn't. Whether it be because she didn't tell me or because she felt like she couldn't. I should've been there. I should've felt like a safe place for her and I hate that she didn't felt that way.

I just don't understand why Alycia was at Dylan's apartment. I would say he forced her but he just truly acted like she was going to tell me otherwise. I don't even know what the fuck kind of explanation he could've given her for her to willingly go with him.

I just don't even want to bring up any of that when I first go in so I don't even know when i'll get the chance to ask. It's eating at me.

"Harry, hey man." Matt said as he brought me in for a hug.

He was back with Alycia pretty much the whole night so I barely saw him besides when he told me he was going to feed Jasper and I offered instead.

"Hey Matt. I brought you some food and coffee. Uhm, I brought some for Alycia too. I don't know if she can have any but...in case she can." I said and he just gave me a sad smile. "How is she doing?" "She's good. You can actually take that coffee back to her."

My eyes went from the food I was handing him, to his face.

"Wait what?"

He just chuckled and nodded.

"She said she'll see you guys now but since Jeff isn't here yet, Sierra had to go back to work, and i'm already here...it's just you." "Uhm...does she know? Is it okay?" "That you're here?" He asked and I nodded.