Bereft (h.s)

30. So pretty.

Song Alycia writes in the beginning ^^.
I Never Wanna Die - Bea Miller
This is one of those that she writes but never releases.

Chapter 30

Alycia's Pov.

It's 6am and the sun isn't up yet but I can see it threatening to come up as I sit on one of the lounge chairs in Harry's backyard. Jake is sitting at the end of it near my feet.

It's chilly out here because the sun isn't out so I was now dressed in a big sweatshirt but no pants. However, I did put on underwear.

I'm not sure why I woke up so early but I did and I had lyrics stirring my brain so I started writing some down in my notes app on my phone. So, I saw Harry's guitar in the living room and grabbed it before coming out here.

I love it out here. It's so peaceful and pretty. It brings me comfort. On top of knowing who's house i'm at. That brings me comfort too. His entire being brings me comfort. Which is scary as fuck but my feelings for him are already a lot stronger than I lead on.

Last night he said to me 'you look so fucking pretty' and that stayed in my head. I don't know why I loved how it came out of his mouth but I did. I knew I looked awful from everything we had done and I was exhausted. I saw how I looked in the mirror, yet he still told me that. And I could tell he meant it. I felt the same about him. So when I woke up, that was in my head along with a melody so I started writing in my notes and now here I am.

Last night was really fucking special. He's now my boyfriend which is wild to say. We had sex for what I technically count as the first time and it was the best sex i've ever had. We also just finally, and fully, admitted our feelings to each other.

I started strumming the guitar but started trying to pick it a bit so I could have a certain sound. I'll fix all of that way later.

I looked down at my notes before singing the words I had written.

"Yesterday is over, it's the first day of my life
You look so fuckin' pretty, and I know it's not the wine
You spin me 'round in circles, underneath your starry eyes
And now I feel all right
And now I feel all right"

I sang not too loud, even though no one is around and the back door is closed so Harry can't hear me if he were to get out of bed. I just like the peace out here and I don't really wanna disturb that either. I kept strumming to get the vibe of the song how I wanted it before I sang more of what I had written.

"'Cause you're so fuckin' special, oh
And I don't wanna let go, oh
'Cause now I think I'm lookin' at you like it's the very first time
You're just so fuckin' special
So I never wanna die, no
I never wanna die"

I smiled at the lyrics and how they were sounding.

Jake was laying with his head looking right at me. He seems to like it too. His paw hit my foot when I stopped singing and my eyebrows knitted together. That was so fucking cute.

"That's all I have buddy." I said in a small voice and kept strumming. He hit my foot with his paw again and I chuckled before setting the guitar flat down on my lap and leaning over to kiss his head.

"Don't tell your dad I wrote that. It'll be our little secret." I mumbled and kissed his head again.

I sat the guitar on the lounge chair beside me and Jake crawled in my lap. I smiled down at him before laying back.

The sun started coming up and it was just so peaceful out here. Suddenly I heard the back door close and I turned to see Harry walking towards us with squinty eyes and a smile.