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34. Maybe more than like...

okay so disclaimer!!! i know jimmy kimmel is actually filmed in la but in this book it's in new york lol. although he has done jimmy kimmel live from new york before. just letting you guys know hahah :)

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Chapter 34

Alycia's Pov.

I stared at Harry, trying to process the words he just told me. I haven't really thought much about how deeply he might be feeling for me because honestly, I wasn't sure if his feelings ran as deep as mine.

In this moment i'm just very shocked and confused on what to say back. I know I feel the same. I have no hesitation to tell him, but what if that freaks him out?

Ugh, I think too much. He literally just said it to me. I think he would appreciate if I said it back. Right? Ah fuck, I don't know.

"Harry, i've been falling in love with you for a while...I honestly just didn't expect you to say it." I said with honesty and the cutest grin spread across his face.

"Yeah?" He said and I chuckled at his cuteness and nodded.

I let my fingers play with the back of his hair at the curls sitting on his neck.

"Yeah." I said quietly as I felt myself getting quite shy at this conversation because quite frankly, I've never had a conversation like this.

Dylan and I said I love you but it was never a conversation of 'i'm falling in love with you' to a 'i'm in love with you'.

One day he just said he loved me and it was during a fight which is ironic. I think it was all just manipulation but it worked, so that's on me.

"Well then I guess I can keep falling then." He said with a smirk and I chuckled with a nod.

"I'd appreciate it if you did. I don't wanna be the only one falling over here." I teased and he smiled before lightly pressing his lips to mine.

"All mine." He whispered against my lips and pulled me even closer to him.

I feel so safe with him and it's the most comfort I think i've ever felt. It's scary as hell because I know how much it would crush me to lose what we have.

In knowing that, every reflex and wall I have threatens to come up and makes me want to back away. Protect myself from getting hurt. But with him, I just feel like I can't. He makes you wanna give all of yourself to him, no matter what happens. He's just worth it. He's worth whatever pain I might feel eventually. And that's scary.

He hummed a song very lightly before it put me to sleep. I've never felt more safe and content than I did in that moment.

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It's finally the day of Jimmy Kimmel and i'm freaking out. Harry couldn't get on the same flight with me because he had to meet with some people from his team over some tour stuff but his flight is literally like 3 hours after mine.

I'm actually really happy now that he's coming. I'm happy to have his support.

I never called my dad to let him know i'm in town but I feel like I probably should. I don't know. It's been so long. What do I even say?
'Hey pops, i'm in town by the way. But only for two days and i'm busy everyday but hope to see you.' Like? Life is just strange now.

I have no plans for my birthday tomorrow but according to Harry, he's got that covered. I kinda just wanted to relax in a hotel room with a stunning view, endless amounts of food and really good sex. Just being honest here.