2/13/15:
sometimes i get this thing i call "mind clutter". it's when my mind is going haywire and i can't control my thoughts.
from these thoughts i get stress and anxiety and it's hard to calm down inside.
it feels like your head is burning and it keeps filling up with absurd thoughts and silent comments.
so i start listening to some songs. but (and believe me, this is true) i feel like my head is literally filling up like hella more with thoughts and i can't hear myself and i'm trapped in my own body and there's no way out.
problematic.
and so i got that yesterday.
my head started filling up, and i feel like i have a fever. my thoughts were all over the place.
and i feel like crap.
lately, i've been very... detached i guess.
it's hard to laugh when everyone else does, it gets more difficult to help my friends with their problems if i can't concentrate.
i just feel like a shadow. i'm getting scared that everyone had forgotten about me or is ignoring me, i know that isn't true, but it just crosses my mind a lot.
i just don't feel like i can't relate with people or talk to them.
this was very short, but i'm having a hard time keeping track of my thoughts.
YOU ARE READING
blender
Randomhi so this is sort of a journal bc why not share my thoughts to strangers instead of keeping them locked in a book?! haha so here we go :) ps. i tend to go on tangents, my train of thought is *points to air* up there.
