12/9/14:
ugh things can get extremely frustrating at school... fck feelings can get in the ways of anything that's everything.
i mean, for someone my age, i've experienced wayyyyy too many negative emotions from a crush, but it's something that i like, ya know?
i like that special feeling of happiness that comes with having a crush on a guy even if i have sad moments bc of that.
but it's hell bc everyone says that he likes me back, and i am aware of that at some level, but there are so many mixed signals and sht.
and wow, that's a lot of personal feelings heh
i guess i should consider myself lucky that he even shows signs of liking me, but it's been like about a year, and i'm still waiting.
and my patience is only shrinking.
i don't know why my mood depends on him so much but it's pissing me off... one moment he's gone and i feel like crap but then he comes back and talks and it's great. GSJSJDBRJAB i sound so pathetic jesus christ.
uggh he's looking at me typing and wants to know what about. no, i don't need you to know that i'm typing about you, so shushh.
Things were so simple in 7th.
YOU ARE READING
blender
Randomhi so this is sort of a journal bc why not share my thoughts to strangers instead of keeping them locked in a book?! haha so here we go :) ps. i tend to go on tangents, my train of thought is *points to air* up there.
