Peace of the Heart (Cacher Series #1)

Kabanata 23

Kabanata 23

Downhill

TW: RAPE (Skip the chapter if needed)

"Stop crying because of that guy! He's an asshole for hurting you!"

My tears wouldn't just stop from rolling down on my cheeks. I want to cry my heart out, I want to feel the pain even just for today. I want to wake up for another day with the possibility of talking about something to him, I want him to clarify if it is still me, I will only believe if I heard it from him. But for now, I couldn't deny the fact that maybe... he really has someone there, thinking about our situation makes it really worst.

Nahihirapan na ako.

Pero I have nothing to do about it... Just to wait.

"He's helping Wancho in the company because he knows that I won't help him! Stop crying! Maybe he found someone there! It's not your fault anymore! He has no taste!"

He wiped off my tears. He was so annoyed that I am crying over a guy. That is not even worth it, for his view.

Alcaeus is worth it. He's just worth the wait. I don't know if I can wait anymore... but the moment I hear his voice for once... I don't think that I can back out. He's really the one that I love.

Facing another day in my life is just so hard. I keep on thinking where did we go wrong. If I made a mistake, why can't he forgive me? What's the point of not talking to me? Was he really that busy? Why can't he clarify things? I don't understand a thing at all. He stayed for a day here, why can't he find a way to talk to me?

Binaba lang ako ni Kuya Darrel sa bahay, may pupuntahan pa raw siya. Pagod lang akong tumango at pumasok na sa bahay. Ang kakaibang pakiramdam pa rin ay nandoon. Our home... it doesn't feel like a home at all, anymore. Parang ang mga tao ay nakikisama na lang sa isa't isa.

I have noticed that Mommy and Daddy were just spending their time in the house tracking my Kuya's wherebouts. They weren't working, visiting our branches, or any thing that they were doing before... they are not doing it anymore. Maybe bacause Kuya Wancho shouldered it all. Mommy preferred to arrange her plants, Daddy preferred  to do his things on this house. But I am not naive, even though they don't include me on things and they hide it within them, even though how much they hide it... I know that there is something wrong. Or maybe my family is just falling apart.

Humiga ako sa sofa at nagpahinga. Lumipas ang oras ay naramdaman ko na lang ang aking sarili na nakatulog na.

"Martiza... Wake up..."

Nagising ako dahil sa boses. Umayos ako at umupo ngunit ang antok ay nasa aking katawan pa rin.

"Martiza, sleep in your room. Malamig dito..." Then I realized that it was Mommy.

Hearing her voice soothes me, but then, she was just staring at me with her swollen eyes.

I realized something and I drifted my eyes on her.

"Bakit nasa kompanya natin si Alcaeus?" Biglaan kong tanong.

Nagulat siya.

"Mommy, I know that you still have the track on the company. Alam mo rin kung gaano ako nasasaktan na hindi nagpaparamdam si Alcaeus. Tapos malalaman ko na isang buwan lang ang pinasok niya sa ibang bansa at dumiretso sa kompanya natin? Ano'ng nangyayari? Bakit hindi mo sinabi sa akin?"

Her lips parted and panic took over her. She was just staring at me with her trembling hands. The view was not good and it scared the shit out of me. I stood up and distanced myself from her.

Biglang tumulo ang luha niya kasabay ng aking paghikbi.

I spoke again despite of my fear.

"H-Hindi mo ba ako iniisip? H-Hindi ka ba nakonsensya? Mommy... sasabihin mo lang... Mahirap ba?"