Peace of the Heart (Cacher Series #1)

Kabanata 9

Kabanata 9

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Nang makauwi ay naligo lang ako at dumiretso na sa garden. Nagdala rin ako ng ibang gamit kagaya ng aking laptop at notebook. Kung iniisip mo na mag-aaral ako ay nagkakamali ka. I'm just going to rate all the dresses that I am going to see! Hindi ko alam kung ano'ng susuotin ko bukas! Hindi ako pwedeng pumili lang ng basta-basta. Nalaman ko kasi na hindi lang pala ang school namin at may kasabay din kami galing sa ibang school!

Ayoko naman pagtawanan ako dahil lang sa suot ko. Ayoko na mapahiya. Hindi na nga maganda ang record ko sa mga estudyante, daragdagan ko pa ba 'yon?

I did some searching at nakakita agad ako ng legit link that's teaching you how to have a glow up. Binasa ko ang mga nakalagay doon at isa-isang isinulat. The night is still young, I can still go out and buy some needs.

How to Glow Up.

1. You need to change the way you dress.

Tumango ako at sinulat 'yon.

That's pretty easy because I have a lot of clothes but I still need to by those spaghetti strap and halter top. Ayon naman kasi ang mga nakikita kong uso ngayon. I need to hop in!

2. Go for something that you haven't done before. If you have a long hair then go and chop that! It's time for new life!

Napahawak ako sa aking buhok at tinignan ito. I always wanted a short hair but Mommy wouldn't let me. Sinasabi niya kasi na hindi ito bagay sa akin dahil malaki ang noo ko at hindi babagay sa istraktura ng aking mukha. My face is kinda chubby and I have an undefined jaw... but I want to try new things.

3. Change your make up routine.

Nang matapos ako sa pagbabasa ay napatitig ako sa sarili ko sa reflection. I am not really attractive and I have so many insecurities. I need a change. I don't wanna be stuck to being old-fashioned. I think I can lift myself enough to do this. Mommy will get mad but I'll just pacify her.

I quickly fixed my things and went to Manong. I told him to drop me to the mall. Hindi na ako nagpaalam kala Kuya, magtetext na lang ako. Hindi pa  masyadong gabi at hindi naman ako magtatagal. I am just going to shop some clothes and fix my hair. I was thinking to do some eyelash lifting or something.

I checked my phone and I got none message. Hindi ko na masyadong pinansin 'yon at tumingin na lang sa daan. I even took a picture and posted it in my story with a caption "not tired" ewan ko ba, hindi naman ako nagpaparinig.

Nakarating agad ako sa mall at inuna kong puntahan ang sa buhok ko. Masyado akong maraming bibitbitin kung uunahin ko ang pamamimili.

"Sigurado ka ba na ipapaputol mo ito? Maganda ang buhok mo, bakla ka!" Sabi ng stylist habang nakahawak sa buhok ko. "Mukhang healthy pa! Ano'ng problema? Broken ka ba?"

I smiled shyly.

I am not broken-hearted!

"I just want to feel nice hehe..."

"Ay ganoon ba? Ano ba ang gusto mong gawin dito? Putol lang?"

"Ah, hanggang neck ko sana?" I answered confused.

"Huh? Sobrang igsi? Sigurado ka ba rito? Baka magsisi ka?"

I stared at myself in the mirror. I will never regret this. This is what I wanted, bakit ako magsisisi? And look at myself! Sobrang nakakaawa ako! Sometimes they tease me about being ugly and they think that it's funny! It's not! I always pity myself! I always ask myself why am I this ugly! This need to be change because being insecure sucks!

"Ayon po ang gusto ko," I said firmly.

Nagsimula siyang gupitan ako at nilipat ko ang aking atensyon sa aking cellphone. I started scrolling through my Instagram. Alcaeus' cousins started to follow me kaya nakikita ko na ang mga story at post nila. I really had no plans to follow them but they already followed me. I don't want to be rude.