Peace of the Heart (Cacher Series #1)

Kabanata 45

Kabanata 45

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"Martiza..."

I kept on roaming my eyes around the familiar white room as I trembled hard feeling my own heart racing. I was being surrounded by many authorities, and with that fact, Kuya Wancho's deep eyes and Alcaeus' dark eyes still flowed in my vision.

"Gusto ho namin malaman ang buong detalye ng pangyayari, Miss Unating. Hindi pwede 'yung tatahimik ka na lang at iiyak sa harap namin. Mahihirapan kaming isulong ang kaso mo!" Nawawalang pasensyang sambit ng isang pulis. "Magsalita ka naman!"

Parehong kumunot ang noo ni Alcaeus at Kuya Wancho. Ako ay nakatitig lamang sa kan'ya ng punong-puno ng takot sa aking mga mata.

"My sister has a history of being mute," Kuya Wancho tried to compose himself. "And she is traumatized with what happened. He assaulted her. Please, officer, be careful with your words toward my sister."

A long silence enveloped the room. Alcaeus held my hand as I watched them got frustrated at my condition. My tears rolled down to my face that made the officer's eyes shut tightly. He slammed the paper on the table that made me wince.

"Ano? Gusto niyong ipinalo ang kasong ito, hindi ba? Bakit hindi nagsasalita 'yan? Kilala niyo ba ang binabangga niyo? Mga Larranaga 'yon! Matagal nang napagiwanan ng panahon ang mga Unating! Hindi ko alam kung bakit patuloy kayong nanggugulo!"

Kumunot ang noo ni Kuya Wancho. Walang emosyong tinignan ni Alcaeus ang matandang lalaki bago siya tumikhim. Nabasa ko agad ang hindi magandang emosyon sa kan'yang mukha, ngunit hindi ko na magawang pigilan pa siya dahil sa hindi mapaliwanag na nararamdaman.

"Ayusin mo ang pagse-serbisyo mo..." Halata ang irita sa boses ni Alcaeus. "You are serving the country, the law, the justice. Authority without wisdom is like a heavy axe without an edge, fitter to bruise than polish. It will do more harm than good. Know where your loyalties lie," Alcaeus warned him sharply.

And without any second, the officer left my room along with his people. We were left. No one dared to talk, they were just eyeing me, thinking what has really happened in the past.

But I don't understand. I want to hate myself. I tried to speak. I want to speak to raise awareness that what I was said was not just accusation. It was the truth. I speak nothing but the truth, that I am finally revealing the truth after many years had passed... but I couldn't understand why... why my voice was taken away again.

I wanted to say everything, I wanted them to pay because they wronged me. But why am I facing this again? Why am I here again? I saved my energy for this day... but why... why is the destiny playing with me again?

Am I not deserving for justice? Do I deserved all that had happened to me? Bakit nandito na naman ako? Bakit... wala na naman ang boses ko? Paano ako lalaban? Paano nila ako ipaglalaban... kung ako mismo ay hindi ko matulungan ang sarili ko? Wala akong tulong. Bakit ganito? Biktima lang din naman ako. Hindi ko ginusto ang kung ano man ang binibintang nila sa akin.

Ang gusto ko lang naman ay hustisya. I just want the justice to side on me. Bakit pahirap nang pahirap? Ang sinasabi ko ay tama. Bakit kung ano ang mali ay ayon ang pinapanigan nila? Hindi ba sila naawa? They destroyed my life. They destroyed my everything. He knew that he is guilty, he knew what he did to me. Bakit... Bakit niya pinapamukhang ginusto ko ang nangyari?

Hindi ko gustong babuyin niya ako. Hindi ko gustong magbunga ang kung anong kababuyan ang ginawa niya sa akin. Hindi ko ginustong dalhin lahat ng takot sa nagdaang taon. Sa lahat ng nangyari sa akin, kahit isa, wala akong ginusto roon.

Bakit niya pinapamukha na gusto ko? Bakit niya pinaglalandakan na pumayag ako? At bakit ako ang sinisisi ng mga tao? Tinanggalan ako ng pangarap sa batang edad. Pinatay ang buhay ko sa isang iglap. Bakit hindi nila maintindihan ang gusto kong iparating? Bakit ako ang binabaliktad?