Control ~Levi x Reader~ {Modern AU}

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Y/N POV 

Tomorrow Levi was coming over for dinner. 

My parents planned it all out. They were going to talk to him about the arrangements to our marriage. 

They said that I will accept any offer that he gives. That by doing this it will make them happy and bring in a lot of support and business to their company.  

What is their company?

It is one of the largest contributors to a number of cloths that are used around. They produce some for clothes, for toys, stuffed animals, stuff like that. 

The company that Levi comes from is a very huge marketing company. I believe it is one of the top 3 in this country. 

As you can see, with our marriage, he would be obligated to share more of my parents products than anyone else. That is pretty much their deal. 

Since the first time that I have met him, he had treated me like a child and always reminded me that he can turn things around and say how terrible the products my parents are distributing are. 

That's why when he got called in after I tried running away with Jean he had expressed that he can walk away from the marriage and ruin my parents. 

When I also called him only an arrangement to me, he got mad. Saying that I'm going to have to learn how to be happy, or at least fake it so the press doesn't see it as anything different than a regular loving marriage. 

I don't like the way I am treated by him. And I know when we have dinner things aren't going to go well. 

He puts up an act in front of my parents and so do my parents. 

Then they all make me look like the bad guy. 

I don't see how that is fair at all. 

I just wanted to live my life. 

They never saw any value in Jean when I did. 

He treated me properly, he helped me understand that my life wasn't normal. 

He only wanted what was best for me. 

He considered how I felt! 

No one has ever thought about that. 

I know they haven't. 

My parents and Levi have only ever thought of themselves. 

I went to college to get a degree that I didn't even care for. 

I took classes that my parents ended up choosing for me. 

I wasn't allowed to talk to any other guy after what had happened with Jean. 

They said all men are going to want is to take away the bright future I have and sex. To get me pregnant to get a share of their company.

That was never the case with Jean. He knew how unhappy I was with them all and wanted to take me away to live a better life. 

And little did they know, I've already slept with Jean. It wasn't great at all, but that's because we were both virgins. 

It didn't help that we both didn't know what we were doing. 

It wouldn't go in and it hurt like hell when he finally got some of it in. 

He said he couldn't get all of it in cause of how tight I was. 

So he finished up and we laughed and eventually we tried again with just a little more experience and it wasn't terrible but it wasn't the best. 

Sort of the same thing happened. 

But it was just a little more enjoyable. 

Regardless, I haven't done anything that scandalous since Jean had been around. 

My parents always said that I should save myself until marriage or if I wanted to lose it to Levi earlier to go ahead. It was always a weird conversation. 

They always made it a point to save myself for Levi. 

That didn't happen. 

I think if my parents were to find out they would be really upset with me. Especially since I lost it to Jean. 

They absolutely hate him. 

Maybe even despise him. 

I just know that the mention of his name in our house hold isn't welcomed.  

I've never understood it at all. 

Why couldn't I be happy the way that I want to be?

I always need the approval from my parents before I go ahead and do anything. 

Even here at my job, I don't understand why they brought me in to work for them when all they are going to do is make sure that I'm doing things right and before I can submit things they have to approve it. 

They don't do that with any of their other employees. 

Its something about how they want control over everything that I do.

I'm only sending catalogs to some of our clients. I don't understand how that needs approval from my parents. 

My parents sent me to college to get a degree in Business Administration only to do this. 

I don't get it. 

It's just really really frustrating. 

One day I'm going to end up despising everyone. 

I'm close to that day. 

I'm not excited for Levi to come over tomorrow. 

My parents are and my mom plans on cooking a nice dinner for us all to enjoy. 

But who knows how much I will actually enjoy. I don't expect it to go well honestly. 

I am sort of expecting things to not turn out all that dandy. 

I am nervous but not for the fact that Levi is coming over. 

Just for the fact that I don't know when I will be signing my life away. 

No one has told me if Levi is going to propose or if one day I'm just going to be told I am attending my wedding. 

It is all these little factors that make me scared. 

That and the fact that I don't really know Levi. 

I have only seen him as the rude arrogant guy that I have no choice but to marry. 

And he knows he'll have power over me. I know he will be the next one to dictate my life and tell me what I can and can't do. 

Again, it is so frustrating. 

I just want to have a choice.