Control ~Levi x Reader~ {Modern AU}

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Y/N POV 

When we got to Eren's apartment, I felt myself shutting down. 

I wanted to go home, home was where Levi and Pepino were, but can I still even call that home? 

Had Levi read the letter I had written for him? 

What did he think about it?

After what he said last night, maybe he'll just disregard what I had to say in the letter. 

Maybe he just tossed it or maybe gave it to Pepino to rip up. 

"Can you stop scratching your face Y/N? You're gonna leave marks." I heard Eren say. 

"Sorry." I didn't even know I was scratching my face. 

Eren's place was decently clean. 

It was a small little place, just him. 

There were pictures here and there of his family I assume. 

A woman and a man who looked so happy to be with one another. And a boy that had the same emerald eyes as Eren. 

This must be his parents. 

Eren came with two mugs. 

"It's hot chocolate." He said as he set them both down on the coffee table in front of us. 

"Thank you." I said to him. 

I had the sudden urge to cry. 

I really don't know why but I did. 

"So can you tell me what happened?" Eren asked softly. 

"I... I don't even know where to begin." I said just above a whisper. 

"Well, lucky for you, I got all the time in the world. Whether its a short or long story, I wanna hear it if you let me in. It seems you have a tendency to shut people out when you are feeling sad or in a depressive mood. I'm here to listen so you can get everything off your chest." Eren said to me with a soft tone. 

I began to cry because of that. 

This caused Eren to engulf me in to a hug. 

"Shh... it's ok... I'm here..." Him saying this only made me cry more cause it reminded me of Levi and when I was upset and he would comfort me. 

"I... I just miss Levi... And Pepino... It was dumb of me... to just think that... running away would make everything better." I said between sobs. 

"I know Y/N... I know." He said rocking us back and forth. 

"What if he hates me?" I thought aloud. 

"Well... I don't think he will. He's hurt, he probably doesn't know what to feel right now, but I know he doesn't hate you. You mean too much to him." Eren said. 

"But he said that I'm only a nuisance and that he's only ever seen me as a business deal. Nothing more than that." I said making myself cry a little more. 

"And he probably just said that out of anger. Like I assume you said something out of anger as well. We all say things we don't mean sometimes." He said. 

I stopped and I thought about it. 

I think I did say something that I didn't mean. 

"I told him he treats me the same way that my dad does... which isn't true at all. When we had our good days, Levi was so kind and gentle and truly wanted the best for me. We was looking out for me and made sure I was the best that I can be... a lot of the things he did... he did them for me... why did I have to think about leaving that? I finally had someone who wanted to geuniely take care of me... Someone who was going to take care of me because I didn't want to." I said softly.