Control ~Levi x Reader~ {Modern AU}

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Y/N POV

Its been a few days since Levi and I had our argument. 

We didn't really talk about it. 

I was never up for it or would just cry. 

It's been really tense at the apartment between Levi and I. 

We don't really speak to one another other than speaking about Pepino, when I need to go to the office, if we need groceries and making small conversation over dinner about how work was. 

I've been crying at night pretty much every night. 

Levi tried comforting me since he was back in the bedroom but whenever he would do that, I ended up sleeping in the living room since I didn't want his comfort or his affection. 

After the second time it happened he didn't try again, he just accepted it. 

That wouldn't stop him from sleeping facing towards my direction. 

He would still sleep that way, almost symbolizing that he was ready for me to let him back in whenever I was ready for that. 

It was more me being distant than anything, there was times Levi would be trying but I didn't accept him in. 

I didn't want to entertain the idea that he can just waddle in like that. 

We do go on silent walks with one another when we are walking Pepino. 

It's more for the both of us to get fresh air. 

My motivation has gone down hill. 

I still go to the office but all I do is get yelled at because of how lethargic I am or because I don't look professional or that I need to brighten up. 

One day after work I exited the building crying and Levi asked if it had anything to do with my father, which indeed it did. 

When he found out that yes it was my father, he went upstairs to exchange a few words with him and then he ended up coming out irritated but not with me. Irritated with my dad. 

When we got in the car he was fine. 

He didn't tell me what he talked about with my father and my father just says that Levi needs to learn some respect and to butt out of the things that goes on in his building. 

But then I get yelled at. 

But then he was the one that picked Levi out for me, and when I say that I get yelled at again for my sass and my tone. 

There are so many things in my life that are making me unhappy right now. 

As terrible as it sounds, being around Levi is one of the main things that is making me unhappy right now.

I understand that he is trying, but I really don't want that from him. 

But then I guess that is better than him yelling at me and just being rude to me.

My dad also makes me unhappy... both my parents actually, more my dad than anything.

He's constantly criticizing me for random things and always has to tell me how I'm not good enough and that I won't amount to be good enough to take over the business. He never gives me a chance and expected me to just junction properly after getting married. 

I never even wanted to go into this damn business. 

I was basically born into it without having a say. 

And my parents, more my dad, have unrealistic standards for me. They want me to play by their rules or else I'm stuck and have no where to go. 

Pepino though. He's my pride and joy.