Control ~Levi x Reader~ {Modern AU}

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Y/N POV

We were currently at Jean's apartment. 

He lived alone.

The first two hours I've spent with Jean I have been absolutely miserable. 

Non stop crying. 

Not wanting him to touch me. 

I just wanted to go back home.

I want to go back to Levi. 

But I know that I couldn't do that. 

Especially not after an argument like that last night. 

Even though he said I was only a business deal to him, I couldn't bring myself to think he was telling the truth. Because I knew he wasn't. 

I meant more to him than that. 

At least, that's what I want to believe. 

I just wanted to go home. 

I wanted to continue having arguments with Levi. 

I wanted to continue having good moments with Levi.

I wanted to continue having grocery runs with Levi. 

I wanted to continue having walks in the neighborhood with Levi. 

I don't want Jean. 

I don't want to do any of that with Jean. 

I don't want him to hold me at night. 

I don't want him to hold me while I'm sad. 

I don't want him to joke around with me in any way.

I don't want him to take Levi's spot. 

Levi holds me at night. 

Levi holds me while I'm sad.

Levi jokes around with me. 

Levi is my go to person. 

What was I even thinking coming here. 

He's my go to person. 

Why didn't I go to him when I started feeling this way?

At hour 3, I couldn't stand being away anymore. 

I knew Levi wouldn't come pick me up. 

He probably wants nothing to do with me right now. 

And I don't blame him for that. 

Jean was trying to have me talk to him on why I was upset but I just couldn't open up. 

I decided I didn't want to stay here with Jean. 

So, I excused myself to the bathroom.

I was going to call Eren. 

He should be willing to pick me up right?

After 3 rings, he did pick up. 

He sounded almost frantic. 

"Hello! Y/N how are you?" 

"Eren... hi. Can you um... I know its late, or really early how ever you want to see it, but would you be able to come and... and feel free to say no... but can you um-" 

"Where do you need me to pick you up from? I'm putting on pants right now." Again he sounded a little frantic. 

I felt like I wanted to cry.