A Life Completed (Hard Time Series Book 5)

Special Time

STEF POV

"Grandma can I get more Teddy Graham's?" I hear Amelia ask as the two of us are outside on the back patio enjoying the warm November air as I cornrow her long pretty hair.  It really was a beautiful afternoon outside and with last weeks fucking ass drama with Callie I had tried all fucking week to find ways to ease my nerves.

It wasn't that I was nervous, fuck no, but Callie, she now had a way of just making me so fucking ass angry, and so fucking ass upset not to mention shattered that I didn't always know what to do with these feelings about her. On one hand I still saw that innocent seventeen year old, that young girl who adored me and Lena and just wanted a home, that sweet girl who adored her kids even if she wasn't sure how to parent and that just wanted a good life. I still saw all that but when I was faced with her now that was just not the reality and I didn't know if it ever would be again. 

The last four years almost five have been exhausting and as strong as I fucking am, as tough as I fucking am, nothing has ever made me feel like this except for when I was away from my kids in Chow. But fucking why? I've deal with shit before, I have dealt with a ton of shit in my fucking life but this situation with Callie is like nothing fucking else.

Partly I wish my ass could shut off my feelings and not give a fuck. But I can't do that she's my daughter, I promised to be her mother, Lena promised to be her mother, and despite the issues Callie was facing we couldn't just fucking give up on her.

And it wasn't that I was going to give up on her, neither of us were but it seems the worse she has gotten the more anger and hatred she has towards the both of us, especially me and even Baby Stef. 

In the past we had staged three interventions with her. The last one was the worst and she stormed out cursing all of us out and damm near spitting in my face. The other two she lied saying she would be happy and open to getting  help but when we checked her in and payed the deposit she bailed and ran off with some other guy. Mike and Jude found her in Vegas, then another time in Seattle and once in San Francisco on skid row.

Callie had really put our family though hell the last few years and she had been doing well a few months ago but this was by far the worst I had ever fucking seen her. It really fucking was especially in terms of the fucking drugs she was doing which that alone broke me in half.

It also didn't help that it seemed this fucking asshole was putting a bunch of shit in her fucking head. I'd love to just run him over with a fucking car, I'd love to decapitate his ass or put a bullet in his head. Fuck, I'd love to do all that shit and make it look like a fucking accident. But I knew  I couldn't for if I did my ass would be right back in Chow and Lena would kick my ass.

"Yaya did you hear me?" Amelia asks again as I glance up from her hair and see Andrew running around with the new RC car I got him yesterday, as Baby Stef is inside grabbing us a snack. 

"I'n sorry baby love Yaya heard you. But did you finish the ones in your bowl already sweets?"

"Nooooooooooooo. I have...I have some Yaya! I have lots!" She giggles as I can't help but kiss the top of her head and laugh along with her.

"Well lets finish those first sweet girl. Ok? Yaya has plenty more for you. You know I bought you tons."

"Tons!" She giggles again leaning her head back to look at me and laughing as I peck her on her little lips a few times as she grabs my cheeks with her tiny hands scrunching up her nose. For me any day I get to spend with my grandbabies is amazing for it is known to everyone that they are my life, my world, my heart and soul.

"Tons my love. Tons my princess!" Winking at her I kiss her forehead as she feeds me some of her cookies.

"For you Yaya!"