That Winter You Came (Completed)

Episode 20

_" you're late.. I've been waiting for so long" Rayan suddenly said from behind.
Of all the words in this world. That was the last thing i expected him to say.
Badro and Imad who were just joking around actually felt angry because of that. To the point Badro shouted:
_" i'm going to punch you well until you get your ears cleared and your head fixed!"
I turned to look at Rayan panicked.
Only to find him still having that sad look.. Still only looking at me.
I kept just looking at him. Not sure what to do to stop a potential fight.
Rayan didn't even look like he cared about badro who was fighting Yassmine's hold on him to come get him nor Imad who was clenching his jaw and ready to support his friend.
It was like i was standing alone in front of him. Caught red handed and accused.
He frightened me.
He suddenly smiled coldly and said to me:
_" tell your boyfriend i still want to punch Nadia if she was a man. That i want to punch her more than anything right now"
With that being said, we all were numbed.
The tone in which he spoke was calm .. But made our hearts beat like drums. Shake like leafs.
Only Rayan had the power to make a boiling volcano freeze in a second .. Explode in another.
Badro and Imad who were showing off just seconds ago stood silent behind me.
They only watched him as he took the rose i was holding from my hand .. Stepped on it . held his bag from the ground and ordered:
_" let's go .. We're late"
I could only follow him from behind.
When i turned to look at the three people behind me , they were even more stupefied than i was.
Watching his back .. The man in front of me didn't look angry, didn't seem like he even cared.
He only kept walking like if nothing happened, like we walked everyday.
And he didn't say a word.
Who knew that the fire that burns the most is the one that is hidden from our sights?
When we reached the class Rayan just laid on his seat like usual.
At that time i didn't know that some people don't shout when angered. Don't cry when sad.
To some people emotions are something to keep deep inside.
I only saw a boy who wasn't afraid of threats. Who treated me like he always did.
Who took a rose from me because i wasn't deserving of holding a rose.
And who was still holding a grudge on me.
I only hated him more.
Yassmine soon came in class . soon she sat beside me she asked what happened . so i angrily said:
_" nothing at all! He just wanted to ruin our mood that's all!"
I was so stupid that in lunch time when he came right away. Grabbed a chair and set in front of me .. I looked at him coldly and said:
_" just go ahead and punch me. If you punched me last year at least i wouldn't be bullied by others. I would have at least kept the hatred i spread towards others all to you"
He kept searching inside his bag ignoring me. He finally grabbed a wrapped box from it.
He unwrapped it .. And It was a box of chocolate.
I was silenced right away..
I moved my eyes from the box to him.. To the box again.
_" i don't understand" i hushed.
Honestly.
He opened the box then and ordered:
_" eat"
I kept looking at him confused. Only observing him as he took one peace after another and ate them.
As if it was a usual lunch.
As if i didn't mean anything to him but someone to keep him company when he ate.
"Was that box a gift from some girl?" I asked my self.
So i reached my hand in dispair, took one peace and asked:
_" are you sure there isn't drugs in this?"
And then looking at his expressionless face i just ate it.
But i barely swallowed it when Rayan suddenly said:
_"not trustworthy .. Two faced.. And a liar"
I looked at him with a cold face, so he added:
_" that's who you are".
As if i didn't already know he was talking about me.
Even though what he said about me was true.
At least with him i was all of that.
But i still took that as an offence and stood up wanting to leave.
That's when he pushed his chair too ..stood up and asked:
_" that boy was your boyfriend?"
Not even looking at him .. I held the class doorknub and shouted:
_"not that it's of your business but no .. He isn't my boyfriend"
I opened the class door leaving but a hand came from above my shoulder and closed the door shut.
When i turned around me .. I found Rayan caging me to the door.
He was so close, yet so far..
He looked at me with those dark eyes of his and said:
_" then, go out with me"
I've been asked out by many boys along my life .. I've been even proposed to weirdly.
But out of everyone .. I only loved one person.
And out of everyone .. The only person i loved asked me out with such a sad face.
He knew from the start. Didn't he?
That i was only going to hurt him.
Still he asked me out in the same day that i broke his heart.
Rayan was cruel to me .. But i was a monster.
That day i looked at him smiling in victory and i said:
_"ok"
I was smug and full of my self.
I thought that he asked me out because he felt jealous. That him asking me out was just another piece of my plan.
At high school you don't think that feelings can be so deep .. And so consuming. Because all adults told us that it was the age of boiling hormones and reckless heads.
So I didn't know that he only asked me out because more than anything , he was afraid that there will come a day where he will wait for me forever but i'll never come.
Because i'm "untrustworthy" so i will go for another so easily.
"Two faced" so i'll smile in his face and stab him in the back.
And i'm a "liar" so i won't keep my promise to come.
I always said to him that if he thought that i was the worst human been. And that i was even worst than his father then why did he hold on to me that much.
His answer was always:
_" because no matter how i tried, i just couldn't let go of you .. And since i only could hold on into it, i believed that if i held you hand too tight then you can't let go. I just realised one day that i could do nothing but fight your will to leave me"
To sum it up .. He's an idiot.