Complicated

Chapter 66: I Miss The Real You

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I M I S S T H E R E A L Y O U

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Damon's POV

I needed to hate you to love me
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Feb 23, 2022

I approached the Slytherin table while holding my potions textbook, and walking through the dining hall it felt as empty as always, because everytime I glanced over at the Ravenclaw table where Kathy would usually be sitting with her friends and laughing, there was an empty space.

I thought back to this time two years ago where she would sit there and I would go up to her, wrap my hand around her neck, making her pulse increase, and I would revel in the lustful look in her eyes as I pulled her face up to kiss me deeply... holy fuck.

It's almost been two years, it will be two years on June 19th. Fuck.

It's been nineteen months. Nineteen months without the love of my life and still I haven't been able to be with anyone else.

A lot of people don't get that. A lot of girls who have thrown themselves at me and a lot of my friends keep telling me to move on, to find someone else, that there will be others. I don't doubt there are other girls out there, but none of them will be anything like my girl. My Katherine. There's no one like her. And there never will be.

Because she's my first love. The love of my life. The love that you have that's so passionate and consuming and fills every part of you and makes you want to live and be better, not just for yourself, but for them too. She's the love that you never forget. That's always there.

A love like... like Logan and Rory from Gilmore Girls. Years later, after they officially broke up, they still had a relationship, even though he was engaged. Was it wrong? Yes. But they loved each other, and they couldn't even deny it to each other and they had to be together somehow.

Does that make sense?

I forced my gaze back to my table to try and ease the pain in my heart, the table which Roxy was hovering over, crouched down to read something over Ric and Al's shoulders, from what I could tell.

Nothing had happened between Roxy and me ever since that evening last October. It was a one time thing and never will be repeated again. Ever. We both know it.

As soon as they saw me approaching, their posture grew rigid and she tried to snatch something out of Ric's grip, but I was quicker. I rushed over to them and snatched the paper they were holding out of their hands mid-exchange.

My heart plummeted as I read the lines in the muggle magazine.

"Damon... don't forget she doesn't remember. This isn't really her." Roxy tried to console me in vain.

I read the muggle magazine page. PEOPLE Magazine or some American rubbish of that sort.

RISING STAR KATHY GELLER AND FELLOW COSTAR NOAH SCHNAPP CONFIRM A SERIOUS RELATIONSHIP AFTER MONTHS OF SPECULATION!

I skimmed the page to read each of their statements.

"Yes, we are dating and we have been for months now. And we honestly couldn't be any happier." - Kathy Geller

"Yes, we've been in a relationship for a couple months. She just brings out the best in me, you know. And I hope to do the same for her." - Noah Schnapp