FATES WILL

CHAPTER 35: you know I'm always here for you..

Lexi's POV;

I don't know how much time had passed by the time I opened my eyes. It seems I had fallen asleep while crying.

I sluggishly moved my body to lean against the headboard. Only now did I realize I wasn't the only one in the room.

I let my sleepy eyes regain focus, as the silhouette sitting in front of me became clearer. I only panicked for a second before realizing who it was.

"Seems you're fully awake now, hmm?" He was definitely teasing me, with that stupid smirk on his face.

"Why are you in my room. It's basic etiquette to knock and recieve permission when entering ones room, ya know!" I narrowed my eyes at him.

"I did knock, you didn't seem to hear me though. Besides, why should I bother with some etiquette or what not, when entering my sisters room?" My brother smirked and raised his chin proudly.

I really don't get what he is so proud about.

I let out a yawn before replying to his stupid statement. "Even if your my brother, you should know we are no longer five year olds who can sleep in the same bed hugging each other!"

"En..either way, you'll always be my LITTLE sister."

I really wanna rub that smirk off his face.

My dream came true just like that?

I wondered as my brother finally removed that smirk.

Ok! What's going on, he seems a bit serious right now!

"Big brother?" I poked his arm a little to get some reaction. He seemed like he was hesitating to say something.

"I was contemplating wheather I should ask or not but...." He stopped and stared straight at my eyes before continuing. "Lexi, why did you cry?"

I froze instantly. Avoiding his piercing eyes, I tried to urticulate an answer. This must be the first time my voice cracked in front of my brother!

"I..I..I didn't cry. You must be mistaken. Why would I cry? Liam is safe....and we didn't suffer that much from the fight." I was barely able to keep my cool. I really don't like the atmosphere right now!

"Lexi! I'm your big brother. I've watched you grow up. I know you....and this is the first time, other than...you know when..that you cried." He spoke softly while getting closer and sitting down right by my side on the bed.

I was still trying to avoid looking directly at him. He hugged my slightly shaking shoulders, bringing me into the warm and familiar embrace.

"I can see you don't want to share. But, I'm certain you've cried. Your eyes are red and swollen." I really didn't realize I was in such a state.

"Lexi, I just want you to know...no matter what it is, I'll always be there for you. Dad, the entire mafia..all of us...will always be there for you. So don't keep it in. And even if you do, you can still lean on me. That's what big brothers are for right?" He smiled at the end, gently kissing the top of my head.

I couldn't hold it in. I bit my lower lip to prevent myself from letting out anymore tears. But, his words made it impossible to do so.

A tear dropped down my cheek, followed by more. I ended up bawling my eyes out while hugging Xander.

"I'm sorry. I just...I...there is...something that is...conflicting me...my decisions...I just...I.." I hiccuped while crying and talking.

"There, there, just let it out!" My brother gently kept patting my back while I cried for another whole hour! I could barely speak by the time I stopped.

"You okay now?" My brother asked me worriedly.

"Yes. And, big brother...thank you. I feel much better now, and...I have somewhere to go." I stared at him with determined eyes, before kicking him out and making myself look presentable.

I walked out of the hideout and got in my car, heading towards my destination. Still, with little hesitation.