Black Waves

When The Brothers Are Reunited

Remington and Andy are meeting up with Emerson and Sebastian today at a local coffee house. Remington hasn't seen his brothers since the hospital but he's been keeping up with them through texts and phone calls. He misses them so much and has missed so much from when Josie wouldn't allow him to leave the house.

Remington and Andy order a white mocha latte and some cake pops and wait inside for the brothers. Remington nibbles on his pink vanilla pop and Andy drinks from his latte. Then two tall men enter the restaurant and and they are all reunited again. Remington stands up and embraces both his brothers. 

"Fuck its been so long," Remington laughs. The men order a frappe and a cappuccino and walk back to the table.

"What have you two been up to? And how are you feeling Rems? Is your ribs and stomach any better?" Emerson asks, noticing how is brother looks like he is radiating with happiness and glowing on the outside.

Remington reaches over and holds Andy's hand and smiles at his boyfriend. Andy kisses his knuckles and it still makes Remington blush. "Oh you know, me and Andy have just been getting used to living together. It's been going well so far, what do you think babe?"

Andy replies, "I didn't realize how much Nutella I'd have to buy to keep this man happy." The table laughs because they have all known it before. "But forreal though, he has made the happiest I've ever been in awhile."

"Sounds like you both are happier," Sebastian mentions, grabbing a sip of his frappe. "Remington did you finally let him stick it in yet?"

Remington chokes on his latte and blushes majorly. Andy laughs and says, "Last night he was screaming my name, so I guess the answer is yes. Just don't look at him when he walks."

Remington is still blushing and rolls his eyes. "Remind me to be quiet next time. And I'm sorry you are fucking huge and it takes awhile for me to be okay with it. If you guys got fucked up the ass with a huge ass pork sword you couldn't walk either!"

Both his brothers start laughing at the couple. "Shit Remi these were things that we didn't need to know," Emerson says. 

Remington smiles and looks at Andy who is also laughing. "I love you," he mouths to the man. Andy scoots closer and wraps his arms around him. "I love you more sweet heart."

 Remington looks down shyly. "But yeah we are official now. And as for the pain...it's still there. I sometimes wake up in the middle of the night with nightmares from what happened," he says while frowning and feeling ashamed. 

"You never said anything about nightmares baby," Andy whispers in his ear. Remington gives him a half smile and continues to look down and twiddle with his hands. 

Later on the boys are back at Andy's house. Andy is a little unsettled because Remington has never mentioned nightmares before. Remington can feel something is off in his energy. Fuck what if he hates me. He can have literally anyone in the world and he chose me. This is all a lie. I hate myself. 

Remington goes into the bathroom and closes the door. He takes out a pack of razors and opens it carefully, not making a noise. I haven't done this in so long. Should I even be doing this? Andy is going to hate me....but he already does. But what he hasn't let the man know is that his depression has gotten so much worse. He thinks about dying on the daily and how everyone would be better off. 

Remington sits on the floor against the wall. He lets the blade glide across his left wrist while the blade became increasingly red with blood. He winces and drags it up his wrist. He drops the blade on the floor and leans his head back on the wall and whimpers. He should just end it all now. Everyone would be so much happier. He finds his pill bottles for pain and anxiety. He slowly consumes all the pills and relaxes back into the wall. He looks down at his wrist and sees the blood running down his arm and dripping onto the floor. Everything is slowly becoming dizzy and he sees the black waves returning. He closes his eyes waiting for everything to end.

"Remington, baby are you in here?" Andy opens the door. Shit I forgot to lock it.