Black Waves

When They Are Tense

Remington- Hey Ands I made it there safe. I'll call you later okay?

Andy- Oh thank God you've had me worried

Remington- sorry babe but I'm with Emmy now. I'm tired as fuck haha. We are driving to his place and then I'm gonna take a nap okay?

Andy- just please stay safe 

Remington- everything that random ass number is sending a bunch of lies to scare you. Don't worry about it babe

Andy- god I hope so...I love you

Remington went to the studio with his brothers the next day and they started working on their song Lonely. Remington wrote it during the nights he would stay up crying reading the texts from Andy to his ex. 

My life don't mean that much to me . So I'm living for you, yeah, I'm living for you. And you can't stand the sight of me so what's the point of this fucked up catastrophe?

He feels the heartbreak in his voice as he sings it, with tears in his eyes. But his voice must remain strong and not crack. I know when Andy hears this he is going to be heartbroken...but it's the truth no matter what. 

Daydreaming of my funeral. Like who would show, bet no one would go. Hey dad, would you show up for me now? Just to bury your little boy in the ground. You broke my heart when you left me. Was just waiting, was just waiting. I pop these pills to waste some time. As I'm faded as I'm faded. This shit messes with my head. The only home I know is my bed. Too lazy for a suicide. I just watch the days pass hoping to die. So sick and tired of being alone. So long, farewell, I'm on my own. I'm sorry mom, I've got to go. I dug this grave I call my home.

He incorporated some of his trauma from growing up as well in this but he knows Andy will hear his new traumas. It's going to break his heart and Remington now has anxiety pitted in his stomach. But this is all his truth, his feelings. If anyone gets hurt in the process, oh well. 

Everyone claps when he's done singing it. He has tears in his eyes but he forces a smile, hugging his brothers and the producers helping him. 

They play the music his brothers played with his vocals and it sounds eerie and amazing. Remington is also planning on taking control and directing the music video, but he's going to base the video on his younger days rather than him and Andy. That might be too far for his husband and fan base.

He sends Andy a selfie of him standing in the mirror, captioning it Miss You. He lost a bunch of weight from the whole fiasco and still has problems eating but now he is at least gaining muscle back. 

Andy- 😍🥵🥵🥵 My sweetheart! God you look so fucking good! Come back home and let me show you a thing or two...

Remington- Oh hush. We finished recording one song on the album. I'm having an emotional day from it. I'm kinda reliving some things...but I promise I love you okay? 

Andy- You need to heal however way works best for you as long as it's healthy. Speaking of, have you eaten today? 

Remington frowns.

Remington- No...I haven't. I must have forgot with all of this going on.

Andy- please go eat for me? See if you were home with me you'd come home to dinner and I'd make sure you always had something.

Remington- I'll try to in a little bit. But I'm going to bed...and you should have been in bed hours ago haha. Love you.

Andy- Eat. Then bed. Love you more

Remington sighs and flops down in his bed. The anxiety in the pit of his stomach keeps him full. Anything else has been making him sick lately. I hope this doesn't lead to an eating disorder...