Black Waves

When Betrayal Leads To Heartbreak

Fuck I didn't mean to stay the night. 

Andy wakes up naked and entangled in Austin's arms. We weren't supposed to go this far...oh fuck. Remington must be so worried. He looks at his phone and doesn't see any messages from his husband. His stomach drops with regret and anxiety. He quickly jumps in the shower, realizing he is covered head to toe in hickies. How the fuck can I hide this from him? I shouldn't have ever done this. Once he is out, he does a poor job of trying to cover up his hickies in foundation and concealer. He hurries out the door and heads to the hotel, trying to think of a lame excuse to tell Remington.

I'll just say I had one too many drinks and stayed the night with an old friend. But how does that explain the hickies? Oh fuck Remi...

He quietly steps into the hotel room, expecting to see his lover sleeping blissfully on the bed. Instead he comes into an empty hotel room. He looks in the bathroom and his husband is nowhere to be found. He gulps and sits on the bed, pulling out his phone.

Andy- Hey baby sorry I was at a party last night and had one too many. We can watch Suicide Squad after our show tonight <3 I miss you

He doesn't hear anything back and sighs, pacing the room. He pulls out his makeup and tries to do a better job covering his marks up and it does the trick. He decides to text Sebastian and see if Rem is with him.

Andy- Hey is Remi with you? I've been looking for him all morning and he isn't answering his phone.

God they must all be pissed at me. The guilt is eating him alive and tears burn into his eyes. He walks over to his suitcase to find the clothes he will wear tonight. Remington's whole suitcase is gone. He wipes the tears from his eyes and pulls out the clothes, when he sees a small paper folded up in the mesh pocket. Andy opens it carefully and Remington's wedding band falls out. God the fucking guilt! 

I'm sorry I wasn't good enough for you. Thank you for a great almost 2 years. I'll be staying with Sebastian for now until we figure out how we want to end things

No no no no no! He picks up his phone and calls Remington. It rings straight to voicemail. He calls him five more times and he never picks up the phone. No my baby...

He picks up the phone and calls Lonny, who luckily answers no matter what.

"Hey Andy! Shit haven't heard from you all day."

"Can you come into my room. I fucked up. I need help."

"Andy, how many more times are you going to fuck up?" He chuckles. "I'm on the way though."

Once Lonny steps into the room, he sees Andy and stops. 

"Dude, are you okay? What the hell is going on?"

Andy sniffles and wipes the tears from his face. "Do you remember Austin?"

Lonny rolls his eyes and sits at the desk chair. "Yeah I remember his no good money wanting ass."

Andy looks down and plays with the bedding. "We've been texting for like a couple weeks now. I told him I wanted to see him when we came into town. One thing lead to another..."

Lonny speaks up. "Andy you are a fucking married man! You can't be doing this shit!"

Andy nods and sniffles. "I think Remi knows. He left his wedding ring here and left a note saying sorry he isn't good enough. I fucking blew it Lons. He won't answer his phone. I don't want him hurting himself but I bet he already has. Remi has been everything I've ever wanted and more. How the fuck could I have done this to him?"

Lonny sighs and spins around in his chair. "Remi fucking adores you and worships the ground you walk on. Maybe you two can get past it. But I don't know if you should come out and say what happened or make up some bull shit lie that will tear you apart."

They both catch a taxi and head to the venue to do soundcheck. Once they get inside, Andy sees his lover sitting on an amp with his head down, scrolling through his phone. His chest feels tight and he walks quickly over to him, putting his hand on his shoulder. Remington looks up and his eyes seem like they sparkle when their gaze meet. Sebastian notices and quickly comes to walk over and Remington shakes his head at his brother who stops in his track.

"What do you want Andy?" He whispers, heartbreak present in his voice. 

"C...can we talk?" Andy asks, rubbing his arm nervously. Remington nods and stands up. 

"I guess let's go for a walk," he mumbles, following his husband. They go  outside under the hot sun and Remington groans, putting on his pair of sunglasses.

"What do you want to say Ands?" He asks, his hands in his pockets and his head looking at his feet.

"I'm sorry I didn't come home last night. I got too caught up with old friends. I should have called you." He lies, feeling his stomach tighten as he says it.

"Is that why you are covered in hickies?" Remington whispers, refusing to look at him. 

Andy stops and grabs Remington's hand. "Remi, baby, I'm so fucking sorry." He sees the tears flowing down his cheeks under his sunglasses. 

Remington quickly wipes them away and pulls his hand back, continuing to walk. "You've been ignoring me for weeks. Constantly on your phone. I saw your messages with him. He was flirting hard and you were accepting it. Then when we got here you instantly got yourself ready and left me with barely saying a word. Me and Sebby followed you Andy! We saw you two at that restaurant! You fucking kissed him!" Tears are flowing hard now.

"Remi...I fucked up  so bad..." Andy says with tears burning in his eyes. "I fucking love you. I only want you."

"Of course after you got done fucking some other guy up the ass now I'm your only one. Maybe if I was shorter, tan and brown hair you'd love me more."

Andy shakes his head and pulls Remington into his arms. "You are my only one Remi. I don't know how the fuck I can ever get you to forgive me but I promise I'll try to make it up to you everyday. Please tell me what to do baby. I can't live without you."

Remington sobs hard, resting his head into Andy's chest. Andy cries too and starts to rub Remington's back softly. He tries to weakly push Andy away but Andy grips onto him tighter.

"I can't you lose you baby. I fucking can't."

"You already did," he whispers. "I'm going to stay in California with Sebby until we figure out what we are doing for a divorce. I'll start looking for houses soon."

"Please Remi...don't do this. We can go to marriage counseling. I'll do anything baby please!" 

Remington shakes his head sniffles. "If your ex is your type, then go for him Ands. I'm just sorry I fucking got in the way of it." 

Andy pulls him closer and kisses him passionately. Remington hesitantly returns the kiss, missing his husband's lip's and taste. Remington eventually backs up and is sobbing even harder. 

"I don't want to be alive anymore," he whispers, hugging himself.