NEW HEARTBREAK [jake] *EDITING.

43.

bella's tears were flying out of her eyes, already staining her eyes when walking towards the entrance of the school, wanting to leave already.

bella's heart started to beat faster when she heard rushed footsteps running behind her.

the person grabbed bella's wrist to look at her.

jake... bella mentally stated, sniffling.

jake's face soften after seeing bella. he pulled her wrist towards his body instantly hugging her tightly.

"i'm sorry." jake muttered his words in a genuine way while patting her head as bella was hearing jake's heartbeat.

jake was confused as to why bella was not hugging him back.

even more confused when bella pushed him off after three seconds. "please leave me alone." teary eyed bella stated, holding her tears while speaking.

jake furrowed his eyebrows, puzzled as to why bella was crying. "huh?"

"jake i don't wanna deal with this anymore okay? i think it's better for us to separate for a while hm? i'm just tired." bella sounded desperate when she said those alarming words to jake before walking away.

jake was left by himself; feeling alone and stupid.
"what have i done?" he uttered to himself, seeing bella disappear from his sight.

"you." sunghoon grabbed his shoulder behind him. jake turned around, feeling alarmed and nervous since he hasn't see sunghoon be this upset.

jay showed his phone at jake, scrolling at the screenshots of the photos and articles which made jake's heart drop.

"is that why bella was crying...?" jake thought, speechless.

sunoo also showed the video from the other day, "why didn't you show me that earlier?" jake sternly asked, upset that he didn't get to know earlier.

"hMmm i don't know maybe because you were occupied with soojin!?" sunoo dramatically mocked his tone as if it was stated obviously.

jake face palmed himself, "what do i do now?" jake cursed himself, feeling hopeless.

"talk it out with her." sunghoon advised. "bella may not agree with you in some cases, but she really cares about you a lot. she will listen and take notes in her head to make you be comfortable around her. just don't fuck up or i really will not forgive you." sunghoon deadpan at jake who shivered at jake's seriousness.

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it was spring break and jake was already bored, lying on his bed. he wanted to hangout and bother bella but with all that's happening, he couldn't.

"damn.." jake noticed that bella blocked his contact number and his social media accounts.

he chuckled in bitterness, knowing it was part of bella's pettiness.

he started to do his homework, sitting on his desk seat and unzipping his book bag on the floor.

"what's this?" jake found a white envelope with the initials,

to jake

from. the best, k.b.

jake tilted his head, knowing who wrote the the letter but intrigued by its sudden presence.

dear jake,
uhhh i hope i can write this in one sitting since there's only a hour left in this period. sunghoon and jay are boring and i'm bored. and you're not here so that's ten times boring :((

although i'm doing this out of boredom, i wanna reflect my feelings towards you. i hope you can find this letter somehow in your book bag... and read my true feelings towards you??? i'm really bad at physically expressing my feelings but hopefully this letter can help in someway.

i don't know where to start this off but i was utterly shocked at how ..handsome you looked when you came back. ten years really make a difference huh, and to the fact you even remembered me was more fascinating.. it even surprised me since ten years is such a long time.

ever since i met you, whether it was at age nine or at nineteen, i felt my life was a bit better??? i don't know how to describe it but i feel like you're the best person around me. despite your annoying and irritating behavior, it made me grow my feelings towards you. who knew this last school year i get to be with you??

and ever since that kiss occurred, i felt weird. good and bad. i liked you back then... but i was scared.. sounds ridiculous right? i was scared of falling in love- going back into the love world. i was scared of losing you .. again. i'm remembering my nine year old self balling my eyes out when you said you were leaving. and ever since then, i looked into the stars every night- praying that you'll come back. come back and watch the stars together again.

for ten years, you reminded me of the stars and how bright you filled my dark void with your sparking self. i used to talk to the moon about you. the way you say my name, the way you bother me, the way you greet me every morning, the way you do things to me, i won't ever get tired of your existence. everything reminds me of you.

we aren't 'officially dating', one day i hope we do..
i'm a sensitive person and i thought we wouldn't click together but here we are.. fate really played us. ever since i've watched cartoons since two? three? i don't know but between that- i've dreamed of having a prince charming. a perfect lover who gets to love me who i am, even though my anger issues can be over the roof, you get to bare with it. with me. i thought we would fight a lot (hopefully not in the future) but we do managed to click well. i guess you did achieve my dream.. to be my prince charming.

to be honest, i'm scared. i've never experienced love.. and i don't know what the new us can bring.. i don't know one day we're gonna be separated again and i have to wait for you... i don't wanna experience another heartbreak. falling in love fears me- i don't know what's expected in the future and i'm utterly scared about it. when i first saw you, i ignored it and i acknowledged it. i didn't do it because i wanted to, but i was scared. what if you disappear again while i'm catching feelings for you?

rather than being straightforward, i'm more of a- are you okay with these things or not type of person . i'm insecure, really. but i do i wanna go all out in front of you. i want you to be comfortable around me. i'm open for all discussions. but if i stay silent around you, i'm just not ready or open to a certain topic. please hopefully you can note that.

jake, you're really important to me. you're such a precious and vulnerable person to me. if i argue with you or some conflict may happen, i just want you to know that i still love you nonetheless. you're the only person that makes me feel on cloud 9, don't forget that. you make me smile and laugh everyday, and so you really changed me. i care about you deeply even though i'm sometimes petty.. you still managed to make my whole world spin around. you make feel like i'm a special person as well.

and jake, please promise me that we will never be separated anymore. although love is a strong word, please don't ever become a stranger who's laugh i can recognize anywhere, kim bella,

your princess.

jake placed his hand on his mouth, shocked and mixed emotions filling his mind. tears were soon to be flowing out, staining the letter.