No Love, Just Hate

36

"I'm... starting to fall in love with you, Summer." I just look at him. Tears are non-stop from coming out.

Hindi ko alam kung anong meron sakin but I slap him. "K-kung sinasabi mo yan dahil naaawa ka sakin pwes 'di ko kailangan 'yang love na 'yan, Winter!" Gusto kong matuwa pero ang bigat bigat ng nararamdaman ko. Halo halo na yung nasa isip ko. Halo halo na yung nararamdaman ko.

"S-Sum---"

"Stop Winter. Tama na. Nakakasawa na eh. Alam mo yun? Magbabago ka na lang tas maya maya iba na naman. If you're just saying it out of pity then just give to your girlfriend." I turn around and go to our closet to get my bags.

I can hear his sobs na lalong nagpaiyak sakin. My sight is starting to get blur. Naninikip na din yung dibdib ko.

Naguguluhan ako. Naiinis ako. Nagagalit ako. Ayan na naman sya, magbabago then kinabukasan iba na naman. Hindi ko na alam gagawin ko. Natatanga na ko.

Oo, alam ko simula pa lang alam ko nang mangyayare 'to. Hinanda ko na yung sarili ko para dito pero bat ganun? B-bat ang sakit pa rin...

I grab all my clothes, shoes everything and put it on my bags. Natatakot ako. Natatakot ako na baka sa susunod hindi ko na talaga makayanan. Uuwi muna ko samin.

Tumayo na ko. Pagharap ko nandun si Winter, nakatingin sakin habang umiiyak.

"Summer, please don't go."

"No, Winter, aalis na ko."

"Please... please, don't leave me." Iniwas ko yung tingin ko sa kanya. Pinunasan ko yung luha ko. Nasasaktan akong makita syang ganto.

"Tumabi ka jan, Winter. Pakiusap."

"No. I won't. Please don't go. Summer please? Let me prove how much I like you." like. Okay.

"You like me but you love Samantha? Please, Winter 'wag na tayong maglokohan dito!"

"Bat ba ayaw mo maniwala sakin ha!?"

"After you broke your own promise that you just made? After you introduce me as your new secretary? After you hurt me? You'll gonna tell you like me? You're starting to fall for me? Damn Winter! Just stop this nonsense!"

"Please believe me, Summer."

"Prove it."

"I will." I was so surprise when he pressed his lips onto mine. I tried to push him but he just so strong. He pin me on the wall. His kiss slowly turning into torrid.

His kiss.... it's full of sincerity. Fuck. I can resist not to respond. Ito na naman. Nawawala na naman yung galit ko sa kanya.

Bat ba ang lakas mo sakin, Winter Richards? Ah. Maybe because I love you.

Ganto pala pagmahal mo yung isang tao 'no? Kahit gano ka pa nya saktan still napapatawad mo sya?

He stop kissing me. He looks at me at the eye. Hinawakan nya yung dalawang pisngi ko. "I'll prove it, Summer. I'll prove that you're already important to me. That I can't live without you. Just let me and don't leave me. Please?" He said it with full of sincerity in his eyes. Wala sa sarili kong tumango ako.

He smile and hug me then he kiss my forehead again. "I'm so sorry for being stupid, Summer. I'm so sorry. I-I love you."

I slightly push him para maalis nya yung yakap nya sakin. "No. You still don't love me. You're just confused."

"Yes, I'm confused. I don't know whom I love. My mind says it's Sam but my heart say it's you. Please, hayaan mo kong patunayan yun sayo. Hayaan mong maparamdam ko sa iyo yung totoong nararamdaman ko. Please Summer?"

"Okay. S-sana... totoo yan."

"It's true Summer. It's true." and there he start kissing me again.

Slowly but full of love. So passionate. Kahit di ko man aminin sa sarili ko, alam ko at nararamdaman kong totoo yung sinasabi nya. But still, merong part saking nagsasabi na... hindi pwede. Kase... may may-ari na kay Winter at hindi ako yun kundi si Samantha Mendoza.

Am I allowed to be selfish too? Or... not?