No Love, Just Hate

41

* S P R I N G *

What? M-May anak kame? "Y-you must be kidding Lauren." wala sa sarili kong sagot.

"S-sana nga nagbibiro lang ako Harold! S-sana... hindi lang ikaw yung tatay ni Jess... sana hindi na lang yung best friend ko ang nakabuntis sakin... Okay pa kung iba eh kaso hindi eh! Ikaw kase yun Harold! Masakit man tanggapin pero ang best friend ko ang nakabuntis sakin! Ang ama ng anak ko." hindi ko alam ang irereact ko. Naguguluhan ako. Yes, I clearly remember how we did it. How I get her pregnant. And I know, na hindi imposibleng mabuntis sya.

"Na-naguguluhan ako..."

"I know you remember every details of it Harold---"

"BUT WHY DIDN'T YOU TELL ME LAUREN!?"

"KASE NAKIKITA KO NA MASAYA KA SA PILING NG IBA! I don't want to ruin your relationship kaya nagtiis ako..."

I honestly want to cry right now. Sobrang gulong gulo ang isip ko ngayon. Halo halo ang nararamdaman ko. Miski ako hindi ko na maintindihan sarili ko.

"I'm planning to marry Ash."

"It's okay. Gusto ko lang naman na malaman mo eh. We're going back to New Zealand tomorrow night."

"Ha? D-dont. W-wag muna. L-let me... spent my day with her... tomorrow..." this is what I want right now. To spend a day with my daughter.

"Okay. I'll let you." tumayo sya. "Can I hug my best friend?"

"Yeah sure." Lumapit ako sa kanya at niyakap sya. "Promise me, nothing will change between us."

"I promise. You too, you should promise that you'll be happy with Ash."

"I will. Tomorrow, I promise to be a great father to Anna, even for a day."

"She'll be happy. She's been longing for you for so long." umalis sya sa yakap. "Uuwi uwi kami dito so you can have bonding with her."

"You should! Or else ako ang pupunta dun at kikidnapin ko si Anna!"

"You piece of sh*t!"

"Stop cursing tsk!"

"Are you done talking?"

Sabay kameng napatingin ni Lauren sa taas ng hagdan ng marinig namin yung boses ni Anna. "Yeah. Come here baby."

* W I N C E Y *

I'm happy to see them together. Para kong mabunutan ng tinik sa inamin ko. Such a shame na hindi sila magkakasama ng matagal.

"Ate"

"Oh Summer." lumapit sya sakin at niyakap ako. "You're really a mother Ate. I envy you, you're so strong."

"Anything for my daughter, I can do it all. Ikaw din, you should stay strong for your baby, okay?"

"Yes Ate."

"Madami ka pang pagdadaanan, but I know you can fight it. Wag kang susuko okay?" She nod.

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* S U M M E R *

After ng pag-uusap nila Kuya at Ate ay umuwi na agad si Kuya. Medyo nahirapan pa nga sya kase humahabol si Jess sa kanya.

Nandito kame ngayon ni Winter sa kwarto at nakahiga sa kama. I actually using his arm as my pillow. Dami kase alam nito eh! Hahaha. "Di ko akalaing buong pamangkin ko pala talaga si Anna. Kaya pala ang gaan ng loob ko sa kanya. Di nyo ba talaga alam na si Kuya ang tatay ni Jess?"

"Nope. Wincey didn't mention it. Pagtinatanong sya sinasabi lang nyang di nya alam. I saw how Wincey struggle when she's carrying Anna on her womb. You know what, muntikan pa ngang malaglag yang si Anna eh but fortunately hindi."

"Muntikan malaglag? Intentionally ot unintentionally?"

"Unintentionally. Accidentally nahulog sa kama si Wincey. Medyo malakas yung pagkabagsak nya to the point blood starting to race down to her thighs. Buti naagapan. Pero naisipan din nyang ipalaglag si Anna, dala ng depression and stress."

"Paano?"

"She's about to drink some capsules na pwedeng magpalaglag. Buti na lang at napigilan sya ni Phenelope. That's why Phenelope loves Anna so much. Look she even flew here when she heard that Anna is here." ganun pala nangyare kay Ate. Grabe napakasurprising ng mga nalaman ko ngayong araw.

"If ever na natuloy ko yung pagpapaabort ko noon, anong mararamdaman mo?"

"Maybe I'll get into serious depression."

"We?"

"Oo nga. I honestly want to have a child already. And fortunately, pinadala nga sakin with a beautiful bonus." namula ako ng hinalikan nya yung tip ng nose ko. Baliw talaga!

Napatayo ako ng biglang may kumatok. Pupunta na sana ako sa pinto para buksan iyon pero hinila ako pabalik ni Winter sa kama at niyakap ako. Goooosh! H-he's body. *gulp*

"Sino yan?" Sigaw nya habang nakayakap pa rin sakin.

"It's me!" Phenelope?

"What do you need?"

"Pengeng pillow!!!"

"Go get some form Lola's room! We're busy making another baby!"

"YAAAA!!" Pinagpapalo ko sya. Making another baby!? HE'S CRAZY!!