all time low (2012-2013)

dim tubs ~ smut

"are you sure you dont wanna stay at my house?" alex says as he parks me infront of me and jack's house.

"it's no problem lex, i wanna spend time with him and try and make it better" i tell him as i look for my keys in my purse.

"right, okay well if you need anything call me or sab ok?" he says as i get out of the car.

"okay, thank you" i close the door and i decide i wont use my keys, even tho i dont like waiting at the door, i wanted jack to be the one to open the door.

i take a deep breath and i ring the bell. and he opens, with messy hair and he was shirtless. we both stand there waiting for someone to say something and i bury myself into his hug, and he wraps his arms around me, i didnt wanna sob, i didnt want to, i slept in his embrace every night, his body heat was the only certainty when it was cold.

"ive missed you danielle" he says and i start quietly sobbing, i regret lashing out at him, i regret getting angry at him, i regret never sorting it out properly.

"i'm sorry" is all i manage to say as i tiptoe to wrap my arms around his neck.

"it's alright, come inside" he says, he goes upstairs and i follow him, the bedsheets were messy, i wanted to go to bed i didnt wanna wake up this early, i kick off my shoes and i take off my socks and i follow him in the bed, and i awkwardly turn my back away from his, i hug a pillow and i close my eyes hoping to fall asleep before i think too much.

i wanted to hug him, but we argued last time i did.

i feel his body weight shift on the bed and he turns to me, he hugs me from behind caressing my body with his, he holds my hand to warm it up and he kisses the top of my head.

i sigh, and i hold his arm, this is what i needed, i needed to feel and think that he cared about this as much as i did, and it didnt take long enough for me to fall asleep, just because it smelled like him and the bed felt familiar.

late at night i change into a black bikini and i put on one of his hoodies and i pray it doesnt anger him, i go downstairs and i stand infront of the tv.

"well hello there, why are you walking around with underwear?" he asks as he laughs at the contradiction between the hoodie and the "underwear"

"i know jack barakat who posts himself buttnaked online isnt talking" i say as i sit down on one of the chairs.

"okay you got me" he says while laughing.

"No idiot its a swimsuit i wanted to go into our jacuzzi" i say confidentially.

"12 in the morning?" he says.

"why not, im waiting for you outside" i announce and i go outside to turn on our jacuzzi and it starts bubbling, it has built in lights, so its the most romantic thing when all lights are out at night.

i take off the hoodie and i shiver, it was January and it was cold as fuck so i slide right into the hot jacuzzi, and its jets was just what i needed, my body was sore and my lower back hurt me.

jack follows me and he starts taking off his clothes entirely. he was naked.

"dont act like its something you've never seen before" he says.

"well ive def seen you buttnaked before, so whats new?" i say as i laugh waiting for him to jump in and he does.

"you know what that was a good idea, its so warm in here" he says as he gets settled down in the tub.

"rightttt? my entire body is still soreee" i dip myself underwater so only my neck and my head are above.

"wanna get something to drink?" he asks me.

"nope, maybe i'll smoke tho." i say and i get up from the tub, i dry my hands and arms so i can hold my box of cigarettes and lighter.

"damn dani you still have a bangin body" he says as he looks at my dripping wet body.

"i mean, nothing changed these couple of months, i guess." i say and i zone out as i walk over to the table on our porch to get my cigarettes, and it reminds me how we had sex in this very tub before, it was before we went on the camping trip with sabrina and alex. everything was so magical for us before you know, he cheated.

i think he started getting bored of me around that time, hard to believe.

couple of months ago..
"DAMN IT STOP PULLING MY LEG HAIR" i hear jack yell as i'm coming from underwater, laughing at how annoyed i had got him tonight, we decided to go for a night soak after jaime left, he came over for a quick dinner and left early, and it was just us late at night in our jacuzzi.

"NEVER LOOK AT YOUR FACE" i say while laughing my ass off and resting my arms on the edge on the opposite side of the tub.

i breath heavily as the bath steams and i relax my shoulders, jack approaches me and he flips me so my back is facing his front, he grabs me by the neck and holds my wrists with the other.

"dont be a fucking bitch" he says.

"or?" i tease, i was getting excited, honestly. he lets go of my neck, he bends me on the pools edge, he smacks my ass really hard and pulls my underwear down and tosses it aside.

"JACK!!" i say, i was getting shy, i got shy very easily, and he was never afraid to do what he felt like doing in bed.

"i know you want me so bad, and you acting clueless makes me want it even more" he says in my ear as he pulls my hair backwards.

"y- yeah i do" i say as i breath heavily, his hands all around me turned me on before we even did anything.

"say it" he says as he starts rubbing me down.

"s- say what?" i say all distracted from the pleasure.

"say you want to get fucked hard" he says as he still rubs me to get me excited.

"f- fuck me" i say while half moaning, just then he puts himself up me and starts fucking me slowly but hard as im bent down on the pool's edge and the only light was the one from the tub.

"lose the bra" he says as he pulls one end of the strings tied around my neck and tosses it aside as he cups my breasts so he is holding me entirely.

present time..
"dani?? will you give me one?" he says as he raises his voice to snap me out of it.

"oh- yeah yeah i will here" i hand him one and he eyes me up and down as i light my cigarette.

"where were you lost?" he asks as i hand him my lighter, sliding back in the tub,

"nothing, you know i'm just a bit tired" i say.

"if you say so, alex thinks we should start getting ready for tour, it's only two months ahead" he says.

"yep, i miss touring so much" i agree with him.

"yeah, i miss the band sluts" he says as he blows the smoke. and i go silent.

"IM SORRY IM SORRY" he says while laughing.

"typical jack moment" i say while ditching my cigarette on the dock, my night got ruined over memories in this house, everything reminds me of something.

it needs to get better soon.