all time low (2012-2013)

pink lacey set (bedazzled)

"SABRINA MY BITCH" i jump on her dropping my carry on as jack and alex give each other stares.

"IVE MISSED YOU OH MY GOD LOOK AT YOU" she kisses me all over my cheek and i smile, i've missed her, all i wanted was some time with her, she knows nothing about these past couple of months.

"I'VE MISSED YOUR BITCHASS TOO" i yell, i show her and alex the whiskey we got them.

"tadaa, to celebrate i dont know what" i hand it to sabrina.

"oh my god this is pretty expensive. thanks guys" she says and alex puts an arm around her shoulders.

"was it a good flight?" she asks me as i carry my bag to her dressing room.

"it was fine, i guess, i just need to talk to you" i say.

"oh, what's up?" she asks me.

"could we sit outside where alex and jack don't hear us" i ask her.

"sure, i'll pour us some of this nice shit" she says, i take a spot on their front porch as i wait for her, i light a cigarette hoping it soothes my anxiety a bit.

"you're smoking more frequently now" she remarks as she places two glasses, one infront of me and one for herself.

"yep, better than going back to drugs" i tap off the ash my cigarette.

"if it works for you then its fine, all what matters." she says and pours us some whiskey.

"so, what's up?" she asks.

"basically, jack started being weird to me on tour, aggressive? he stopped sleeping with me too and he stopped wanting to have sex, i was so weirded out, was he disgusted of me? was there something wrong? i didn't know" i say while taking a sip from my drink.

"oh?" she listens.

"yeah and one night i was out with sleeping with sirens and our band and jack stayed behind, i got sick and i threw up, when kellin took me back to our van, jack had another girl on top of him" i say. she doesn't say anything and she frowns because i bet she basically knew what was up at this point.

"so, i stayed with kellin, he took good care of me, and i found out i was pregnant" i say and she yells at me.

"and you're drinking and smoking!! have you gone nuts??" she lectures me.

"expect jack didn't want me or the baby so, i went to get an abortion with kellin, and since things were so packed with tension i didnt stay with the band on the bus" i say, and she listens.

"aaand, kellin hits me, jack is now with molly but honestly? we fucked not a bit ago" i say and she shoves her face in her hands in disappointment.

"man what the fuck is this bullshit, i feel so sorry for you" she frowns as i throw my cigarette on the ground, crushing it with my shoes and sipping on the whiskey.

"yepp, i feel bad for me too, i still love jack, i will forever do, i've loved him since he was a lanky teen boy with skunk hair, and i still love him now" i say while i spin around the alcohol in my glass.

"i'm so sorry..man..i dont know, do you wanna go out tomorrow?" she suggests to make me feel better.

"where" i ask.

"like the mall or something, just us two without these two annoying ass boys, you need a break" she says.

"i dont know" i tell her.

"OH COME ON I NEED YOU TO HELP ME OUT WITH A LITTLE SOMETHING" she begs.

"OKAY IF THATS WHAT YOU WANT ME FOR THEN!" i give up swinging my hands in the air and we both laugh.