all time low (2012-2013)

one hundred sleepless nights ~ smut

danielle's pov
"MY WIFE IS BACKKK" jaime yells really loudly as he comes in with a flower bouquet.

"JAIME MY MAN!!" i practically scream as i jump on him, i missed him the most, he was always like a dad to me, my dad was pretty fucking absent, but jaime was my go to guidance.

"it's good as fuck to have you back, we've all missed you" jaime pats me on the back.

"MISS MOIKE I'LL BUY YOU MANY STICKS" i say as i pull in mike in the tightest hug and he carries around me alex's apartment as he lifts me and i scream in joy.

"MY WHORE IS BACK, LETS DRINK TO THIS" he screams while im still carried by him.

"you fucking idiot she just got out of rehab" alex says.

"i dont mind me some alcohol" i laugh, when its jack's turn i just smile at him and walk away. i'm still pretty hurt over what he did, i expect a conversation. a proper explanation.

mike pulls me in a hug and steals me aside for a moment, he has missed me so much, we werent the closest but oh god, in highschool if it was 4am and i was upset he would meet me under my house with a pack of cigs.

"how are you love" he puts an arm around my shoulders as we walk away from everyone.

"i'm great" i tell him.

"how was rehab?" he asks.

"you'd be surprised at how good it was there, it was very much needed" i smile as i nod.

"thats good to hear, i'm happy you think so" he pats my back.

"yeah, i'm just not ready to face jack yet. he acts like nothing happened and thats not the case" i sigh as i rub my forehead.

"it's gonna be alright, you arent obligated to discuss anything, lets just have some fun, yeah?" mike shakes me up to get me in the spirit.

by nighttime everyone leaves but jack, i wasnt going back home again, i havent been home in months, alex and danielle were kind enough to let me stay around until i figure out what is it gonna be.

"can we talk?" jack says as he toys around with something in his black leather jacket's pocket. it was already nighttime and i was tired, we danced around, ate a shit ton of pizza, and played alot of games.

"yeah" i nod and he walks out to alex's front porch and sits on one of the chairs they have outside, it was dark and really cold.

"so, how are you doing? how was everything?" he says as he looks at his shoes and fumbles with something in his pocket.

"it was good, the nurses were friendly, and yeah i'm much better now" i say as i fidget with my hoodie's string.

"thats good, i hated to see you struggle, it killed me" he says.

"i'm sorry, i could have been better for you" i say, my tone kinda shaky, my throat was burning from holding in the tears.

"it's my fault, i would have reacted the same way, i'm so sorry danielle" he says while looking in my eyes and i look down at the wooden floor.

"yeah" i sigh, all i wanted to do was burst out in tears, i really still wanted us to have something, but i cant forgive him. everytime i see him, i'm reminded of it.

"it didnt feel good, i didnt like it, i just miss you and i wish you could go back home" he says with his eyes all glassy from holding in the tears.

"but it happened, and you didnt tell me, was i meant to never find out about it?" i frown as i look at his beautiful face.

"i dont think so, i just didnt have the heart to tell you, i didnt wanna ruin your spirit, you were doing great" he says as his voice breaks.