all time low (2012-2013)

minus zero? - bonus chapter

2014..
today, jack was busy with micheal from 5 seconds of summer, me and micheal do talk, just not as much, he is closer with jack obviously, so i dont really see him or hangout with him that often, to my luck, sabrina had asked me to go have breakfast with her and it was a blessing.

it was january already, and it was snowing, it was fucking freezing, i fix the blankets with my feet and i hug my pillow tighter in an attempt to get warmer.

"baby, i'm leaving" jack whispers in my ear and kisses my cheek while im sleeping, i was too sleepy to return it so i just nodded and fell back into sleep, an hour later i wake up to get ready and i make it down to some breakfast spot downtown that made amazing baked goods for breakfast, and i loved their hot chocolate.

"heyy how are you" i say while slipping my bag on my chair and taking a seat while i take off my gloves and i hold a random sugar packet as i play around with it as sabrina goes on and on about something, i dont know why but i felt off today.

"and i literally- hey are you listening?" sabrina asks me and it snaps me back in order.

"oh yeah i'm i thought i saw something" i turn back to her and i pay attention.

"okay well, i've got something to tell you.." she says with a big grin on her face, she digs in her bag and pulls out a pregnancy test and slides it on the table. and oh boy, it was positive.

"oh..i'm..wow?" i say in disbelief while i look at her face to examine if she's happy or sad about it, yet the grin got wider, and it told me that i should act happy about it.

"oh my god sabrina congrats! does alex know?" i ask her while i hand her the test, smiling big.

"of course! you should have seen his face when he found out. i- i cant believe it!" she goes on and on.

"wow i'm gonna be the cool auntie now? where does time go?" i tell her while smiling.

"i know right? it feels like i met him just yesterday, and how awkward we were on that double date..when i met you, man" she says while smiling at the rush of memories.

this is my friend since i was little, now she's having a baby, isnt it insane?

it kinda confused me, alex was always so childish, so careless, young, free, now it sounds like he has matured so much, he got engaged to her last year, now he is having a baby, he just seems so serious about her.

i hated the part in me that constantly compared them to us, that's just so wrong and yet i cant help it, jack cheated many times a couple of years back and ever since it has messed with my self esteem, or just how seriously he took me? and if i was just something to fill a void in his life?

he toned it down on the alcohol, he has been taking me places with him and he has been putting in alot of effort, i just dont see his commitment getting any serious and it hurts me.

back to reality, i should be happy for my bestfriend.

"aw man, no more getting drunk?" i ask her while pouting.

"i guess so" she says while laughing.

"well i expect us to go shopping very soon when you know it's gender, OH! and i will paint their room" i say, throwing all of these ideas around.

by 4pm sabrina leaves and while i was hanging out with her, jack calls me and suggests we go out on a date tonight since it was the weekend and i obviously agreed.

he pulls up with his car with an idiotic smile on his face, i jump into the passenger seat while trying to warm myself and he sits there watching me blow my hands in an attempt to make me feel warmer.