✔️ Body and Mind 3

New Start

Yuzuru got home and threw himself on the bed, yet again staring at the ceiling as he did an hour ago but this time actually feeling better. Much better.

A moment later he sat up, looking around his room, and shortly after went online, looking for new furniture.
He knew he needs a change and being in the same room, lying in the same bed, everything reminding him of Anya was not doing him any favor.
There was no point in lingering on all those things. Maybe he will not be able to get rid of everything yet, but at least this could be the first step in the right direction.

He bought a  big double bed, deciding that he will take his mum's room, which was much bigger than his. And considering his mum came to visit only a few times a year and only for few days, he figured it would be okay.
And at least with the bigger bed, it should be easier for him to avoid any kind of expected spooning and cuddling with the girls that sometimes ended up staying the night. As much as he was not enjoying sleeping while embracing another girl, his old bed was not giving him other options. Usually resulting in him moving to his mum's room when he woke up at 3 am. He hoped that the large bed he just added to the basket would solve that issue for him. Yuzuru also bought another one for his mum as well as a new desk, library, and among other things also a rectangular wooden box that should be able to fit all the things he had left of Anya. There was no way he would be able to throw those out, but he realized there was no point in staring at them every single day and being reminded of her.

The next days he spent any free moment in rearranging the flat, disassembling the old furniture, and building a new one, finding out he knows more curses and swears in English than just 'fuck sake'.

And when he was moving the small chest of drawers in the hallway on which usually ended up the pile of mail from the mailbox to his disbelief, he finally found the letter that Anya sent him.
One that she wrote him after they lost contact and before she went to look for him in Japan.
The envelope was stuck between the drawer and the wall, probably falling behind it from the huge pile of mail they have got after being gone for so long.

Yuzuru picked it up and sat on the floor. He opened the letter, surprising himself seeing that his fingers are steady.

"Dearest Yuzu,

Seems there was some misunderstanding with the interview I gave. It had nothing to do with you. It was just for a chess magazine. I just needed the money but I didn't mention you in there at all. Seeing through the glass entry door how full your mailbox already is, I won't try to send you a copy of it but I am including at least the double-page from the magazine.
Though I doubt you believed it anyway. Something is telling me it might be the doing of your lovely PR Team.

Apparently one of your neighbors thinks I am stalking you, so I can't stop by anymore, but it doesn't seem like you are coming back anytime soon anyway. So I will try and go to Japan as well. I am including the address of the hotel I booked there as well as my current address, my phone number, and my email.

Hopefully, see you soon.

Not sure what else to write....I know you would be happy for something less informative and rather read something romantic. But you know me.
I am currently wrecking my head thinking of something nice to finish the letter with but it all sounds so....cringy.
If you would only know how many times I rolled my eyes in the last 10 minutes.

Okay, I think I decided on something. There is always somebody who said it better than I ever could. So I will again resolve to hide behind the words of somebody else, but I hope you know it doesn't make them any less true.

"Absence diminishes small loves and increases great ones, as the wind blows out the candle and fans the bonfire."
― Francois Duc de la Rochefoucauld

And I don't believe that what feel for each other is comparable to a candle.
So just hold in there and don't give up on me, please. We will see each other soon and the time apart will only make the reunion better!