When you realise

34. Hunter's Breakthrough

Relief that is the only way I can explain how I was feeling right now, after Eliana not answering her phone to me last night, all I could think of was that she was ignoring me, we had such a fantastic day and everything felt perfect between us.

I could feel that she was melting into my touch the more I touched her, I knew she was not going to stop me from kissing her, my lips are desperate to touch hers, if Rosie had not stopped us both times, I would have had a chance to feed my addiction that I have been craving for.

It was the first time I told her that I loved her face to face, I felt it was the perfect time when she was resting on my shoulder and once, she started drawing a love heart with her finger on my chest, I knew that I had to say it, I know she loves me, I can see it in her eyes, especially how she looked at me after I told her that I loved her.

I just wish I knew what made everything change, I could feel her completely change and shut down after I told her that I loved her, at the time I know it was the right thing to say, the moment was perfect, she didn't shy away straight away, it was only after I questioned that she had a driver, I know she had a car and a license, she has driven to my house before, although there were times that she did not drive to my house, I just assumed she caught a taxi.

Maybe that's why she questioned me about me loving her when I don't know her, there are many things I don't know about her, but there are also many things I do know about her and I'm sure that they would prove how much I love her over knowing the possessions that she may have.

So, when she called me this morning right after my parents had left with Rosie, the relief I felt when she told me was not ignoring me. I just wanted so badly to hold her and kiss her, I need to be with her, the only time I feel complete lately is when she is near me, even if it was like the other night when we were just having dinner in her office or at the park when I could touch her. Everything in me feels alive just by looking at her or even talking to her on the phone.

I was still on the phone with her when she had drifted off to sleep again, she must have had a very big night with Damian last night, I know I shouldn't be feeling jealous of Damian but I am, I guess I want to be the only man in her life but if it wasn't for him right now, I am sure I would not be getting anywhere with her, he has given me opportunities to be near her, he has told me she is happier just by talking to me. I can only hope that he is encouraging her to give me a chance as well.

Ever since I was on the phone to Eliana this morning all images that I had in my head were of Ellie being in the bath or lying naked in her bed, I couldn't concentrate on anything, buttering toast became a chore in itself.

Not to mention when I went in to make my bed, all images of her sleeping naked next to me, my hands being able to run over her body. I think I was hard for well over an hour trying to do things around the house, before I just felt too sensitive with having my erection rubbing against my boxer shorts it was almost becoming unbearingly painful and I needed a cold shower.

Not that the cold shower helped, I have made love to Ellie in this shower before, I have pinned her against the wall and pushed deep inside of her having her scream my name over and over again, I have never been so hard for so long in all my life and it was plain to see that I was not going to be able to function today, once again like a horney little teenager I had to give myself some release.

The guys had dropped off the girls to meet Eliana so that they could have fun at lunch so we decided to meet at the bar in the hotel. I thought it was funny that James thanked me for trying to work it out with Eliana because Rachel had stopped hating on me slightly.

I knew I wasn't going to get to see Eliana now until Saturday, she said she was busy this week, I know I should feel grateful that she actually gave me a time to see her instead of saying no all the time but I really want a chance to sort things out now. So, you can imagine my surprise when I got a call just after lunch from her, I jumped at the chance to answer it, she however didn't really talk, she just wanted me to take James up to her apartment for Rachel.