When you realise

6. The Heartbreak

I slightly pushed Rosie back to look at her, how can I do this to such an innocent child, she never deserved to feel this way at such a young age. I wiped the tears away from her eyes and then reached for the back of my necklace to unlatch the hook. I held it in my hand and took a deep breath.

Hunter had given me the necklace for my birthday, I didn't expect a present mainly because I did not tell him that it was my birthday, I guess that Bianca or Rachel had informed their partners who happened to be Hunters best friends that they were taking me out for drinks to celebrate my birthday, we had been at the club for about 2 hours and feeling a little tipsy when, I felt hands go around my waist and I was about to turn around and punch the guy, but stopped suddenly when I saw it was Hunter, he was in a state of shock but burst out laughing because I was going to hit him, I must have been bright red with embarrassment because he kissed my cheek and told me red looked good on me. He then looked me in the eyes and kissed me passionately like he had been starving for me and couldn't hold back anymore, I was able to feel his arousal build in his pants as I grinded my lower half against him on the dance floor. He stopped the kiss suddenly and told me to turn around and close my eyes, once I had done what he asked I felt him slide my hair to one side and place something on the neck, he then proceeded to kiss up my neck and suck on my ear lobe and he whispered happy birthday to me in my ear as I let out a slight moan.

I looked up at Hunter who was looking at the necklace that now sat in my hand, he looked like he had just had the same memory of when the necklace was given to me, I didn't want to read too much into his look so I quickly turned around and put all my focus back on Rosie, "Turn around sweetheart and close your eyes" I'm not actually sure if I said this just for Rosie or if I said it to see if I can get a reaction from Hunter, but either way Rosie turned around and closed her eyes and Hunter took a sharp breath that I heard clearly, making me believe he was being effected by what is happening.

I moved Rosie's hair to one side and fastened the necklace around her neck, she was holding on to the diamond pendant that was hanging from the necklace ironically it was a tear shaped diamond, when she turned around and looked at me, her eyes were bloodshot red and my heart was breaking even further.

"Someone very special to the both of us gave me this necklace and I would love for you to have it, will you keep it safe for me princess"? Rosie gave me a nod and then flung her arms around my neck and refused to let go.

1 minute, this is my final minute to say goodbye.

I stood up with Rosie still in my hands and held on like if I was to let go, all oxygen would be taken from my body and I would collapse. We both had tears coming from our eyes and Rosie was sobbing begging me to stay.

I looked at Hunter and he actually looked guilty, I don't know if he wanted to cry or if the guilt of what he was witnessing made his eyes look glassy. I walked closer to him and without actually talking my lips moved asking him to take Rosie, he reached out for her, but Rosie wouldn't let go, he had to pull her arm away from my neck, she let go and flung her arms around her father crying for him not to let me go anywhere.

I pushed up against her back and gave her a final hug, my hand went up and grabbed Hunters bicep and squeezed, this was the last time I was going to touch him and I wanted him to feel the pain I was by walking away.

Then after brushing some hair away from Rosie's forehead I kissed her one final time, as her head was laying on Hunter's shoulder and I was so close to his face, I slowly looked into his eyes and leaned in and kissed the side of his mouth and whispered "Goodbye".

I felt the vibrations of my phone in my jeans pocket knowing the message that just came in was from my driver telling me he was here. I turned away from the 2 people that mean the most to me in this world, wiped the tears from my face, picked up my bag and walked away, I did not look back when I got to the door, I did not look back when I walked out the door and I did not look back walking down the path.

"Are you planning on leaving without a goodbye", I stopped dead in my pathway to the car and turned around to see Nathan staring at me with sadness in his eyes.

"You know I always loved you like a daughter, Mary told me what was said, I am so sorry Muffin", a tear fell down when he called me by my pet name, the first time I ever met him, Nathan and Mary just called into Hunter's house unannounced and Mary had started her usual rant on how Hunter needs to find a nice girl not one just taking him for a ride for his money and me not being one for confrontation I just stood up and said "I'll make muffins".

Thinking about it now it was just silly but Nathan stood up right behind me and told me he would help and we have actually been close ever since, that day the name muffin stuck. I lunged at Nathan and he held me tight.

"Don't be a stranger, do you hear me muffin, and you come and see me and call me whenever you want, without you I only have that crazy old bat to talk to". I let out a little chuckle because he was not shy about calling Mary a crazy old bat.

He loved her dearly and they have been married for 37 years and together for 40. He never liked the way she treated me though and always told her I was different. Well I was different in the sense that I didn't fall pregnant, but not different in the sense that I was too blindly in love to notice that I was not loved back. I nodded my head and Nathan wiped the tears that escaped my eyes and kissed my forehead.

"I love you muffin, thank you for fixing this family" and with that last remark, he walked away, I looked up and noticed Nathan standing at the door still holding Rosie close but I could not stay any longer, heartbreak is not something that I enjoy, in fact I think this is the first time my heart is breaking.

I didn't cry at my mother's funeral, I didn't cry because I never knew my father. I never cried over another male breaking my heart, maybe because I never felt anything for anyone else I slept with but this time I am broken and I don't know what it will take to fix me.

I turned around, picked my bag up again and walked to the car where my driver had the door open and waiting for me, I gave him a slight nod and asked to be taken home, not looking back again.