Friends(Hisoka x Reader x Illumi)

Chapter 41: Water

I make a 'hm' sound at Illumi. "it's not that I did what he told me, it's that...I think I'm getting something out of this, something rather important". "The money duh". I said looking at him as if he said something so dumb. "Yes, but I guess some type of connection and feeling". I threw my head back a bit, sighing. "don't tell me Illumi Zoldyck is gonna fall for me?"."no, but I'll at least know what being with someone feels like, my life is being an assassin and making my parents proud so".

I pushed a piece of illumis hair to the back of his ear, I leaned over and kissed his lips. "I'm proud of you". I told him. "Proud?". "Yea, you're trying to do something that'll benefit you instead of your family, or in other words doing something for yourself. But that doesn't mean get your heart in a twist for me".

"I'd be disappointed in myself if I did". "You wanna get beat up, I don't need your extra insult". I know Illumi won't get his heart in a twist for me, I mean we both hate each other, but doing something like this I guess is tolerable, doesn't matter, when this is over I won't ever have to get close to this man again. "Sure, but maybe you'd rather fight me in the pool than the jacuzzi?". Illumi said, looking at me. I raised an eyebrow.

"you think I didn't know? I could clearly see the irrational fear on your face when the pool was mentioned, you've made your weakness be known too easily". "Of course you'd say something like that, you assassins say anything to scare and manipulate people into fear, just shut your mouth I'm sick of your voice". "But as we sit here I all of a sudden would like to go for a swim, if I'm really trying to pull your strings then why not come with me?" I stayed silent now, Illumi knew what he was doing, he knows I try my best not to show fear.

Illumi grabbed my chin gently pulling my face a little closer to his. "One look lovely, nothing more, unless..I was right". I smacked illumis hand off my face, now getting off of him while we both make our way to the edge of the pool.

The pool was big, the bottom seemed like it was nowhere to be seen. Blue little ripples going on due to the little bit of wind blowing. The more I looked the more it seemed to get deeper. I looked over on the side of the pool, seeing 8ft deep. Why is this pool so deep, are we going scuba diving? Damn. My eyes make their way back to the pool. "Do we have to stand this close to the pool?" "Don't be a drag, it's all water, that's it".

Me and illumis eyes meet each other unexpectedly. "Doesn't the water look nice?" Illumi said like he was trying to tease. My eyes averted back to look at the water once more...The shallow, deep water, the blue waves that suffocate me, her hands with a tight grip around my hair suffocating me under the water while she screams in dissatisfaction of my existence. "You're not like us". "You'll never be like us" "not even your father knows what you are" "you're useless as all", my irrational fear of the water, but mostly not knowing how to swim in the water. It's scary.

I get out of my thoughts making sure not to scare myself. "Illumi can we-". I tried finishing my question but then felt a hand push my back, making me fall with a big splash into the pool. I open my eyes feeling myself move slower. I move my arms around trying to make it to the top, but the slow movements don't help me in the situation, kicking, grabbing, attacking, fighting, feeling, and screaming at.

Water. Just water. The movements make it hard to breath, the slower and slower the water calls me into the dark.

Mother finally holds my hand as we walk down the rocky path to who knows where. The leaves of the trees blow against each other, dancing in sync, the sky blue as the deep ocean. While the sun radiated heat on our skin. Everything feels nice, and happy, but my mother seems rather focused on other things than trying to enjoy the day. The more I look at her the more I realize the outside beauty of her, everything about mother was perfect, nothing was out of place and she made sure of that.

"Mother, it's beautiful outside, why don't we stop to enjoy this moment?" I ask. "More things need to be done". I looked down knowing she'd never stop until I could do what she wanted me to. I would always stay determined to do it for her. But sometimes...it's not enough to satisfy her. Knowing 12 years that the more you try, the more nothing changes, but do you give up? No.

We stand Infront of the lake. I look at the little waves. "Get in". I look over to my mother slowly, my hands start to shake a bit with what she just told me, my legs feeling like they were gonna come off. "I cant mommy". Her gaze was still on the lake, never looking at me. "Excuse me?". She said as her eyebrow raised. "Did I give you permission to speak? I don't think I did, so unless you want things to get ugly, I'd suggest you get in". My eyes stared deep into the lake, she knew I couldn't swim, with all the riches in the world, knowing this is one, I could never have. "I don't know why your stalling, I have things to do when I get back and your only holding me back, get.in"

I was scared, but if it meant trying and seeing some type of reaction on her face, then it would be nice. I slowly made my way over into the water

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Authors Note: I'm sorry y'all, especially for being late and even more late, please forgive me