The Psychology of Love

Chapter 10 Debauchery

Chapter 10    Debauchery

"Tape 4: The analysis talk with Nadine remained as one-sided as the session. Only this time it was me who spoke. Nadine was silent, listening to my explanations and trying to understand. It almost seemed as if she had experienced the depths of an analysis for the first time," Sam speaks into his voice recorder as he walks briskly through the campus toward his office.

It's 2:03 p.m.

Sam got lost in the analysis. He quickly realized that Nadine still lacks the basics of psychoanalysis. And so he began to explain the most important methods. In the process, he lost all sense of time.

For Sam, time is precious. He uses it sensibly and purposefully.

Hoping to gain Nadine's interest and motivation to really get to know himself and interpret his own metaphors in behavior, he invested that time.

He forgot about the 2:00 p.m. session with YU.

Only when he said goodbye to Nadine and looked at the clock, he was startled that it was already so late.

Now he walks briskly in the direction of his practice. He only knows that now a meeting will follow.

With whom, he cannot activate in his consciousness.

YU leans against the wall next to Sam's practice.

He had already knocked at 1:54 pm.

He thought to himself that at least he had lasted a minute longer than the last one and knocked on Sam's door too early again. As he did so, he chuckled to himself.

This time he felt a warm calm inside him. He was looking forward to the session.
Was ready to open up.

To move forward with Sam's research.

To figure himself out.

His cold hands waited for five minutes before daring to knock again.

When the door remained closed to him, YU's grin faded, but not his patience.

YU can wait. He doesn't let any time affect him.

He haunts himself while he waits.

The familiar feeling of inner isolation does not upset him.

He waits.
For Sam.

The Sam who first turns into the hallway at 2:08 p.m. and spots someone dressed in black standing quietly against the wall next to his door.

Sam falters at the loud internal bang.

An intense tingling sensation spreads from his stomach to every cell in his body.

His heart begins to race and his blood to pump into every fine vein in his skin.

Crimson.

Sam blushes crimson.

All over his body, hidden by his clothes.

'YU. I forgot about YU. The session with YU.', he repeats inwardly, marveling at himself.

Amazed at how he could have fooled himself like that.
Amazed that he had turned his back on himself.
Amazed at the power of repression.

YU feels the change in the atmosphere.

He knows the wait is over.

He turns his gaze to Sam.

They look at each other from a distance.