IN BETWEEN

~f i f t y~

There's a rhythm to my chaos and its you.

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|Chapter fifty|

"Wakey wakey sis! C'mon get up or else you're going to be late for school." Chase entered my room and being super energetic like all time tried waking me up. Me on the other being the lazy one like all time felt like didn't wanna leave the bed. But of course, Chase decided that it would be good to just pull my duvet covers down. "C'mon, get up."

"Was this necessary?" I groaned loudly.

"Yes daughter. Get up, school's waiting." Dad chimed in as he was passing by my room.

Hm, so the major reasons that I didn't feel like going to school was that I was scared that I'm going to face Aaron today after our horrible encounter. Okay, you know what? I take my words back. That was honestly the best encounter we've ever had but the ending not so.

After we kissed and when Aaron said 'no, this can't happen' and he walked away, I tried not to cry at all. Instead I headed home from the rooftop with not dropping a single tear. Dad and Chase asked about my weird behaviour because yes I was being weird but I just waved them off. And till now, I haven't shed a tear not about the fact that how he rejected me but for the fact that I didn't want to be one of those girls who cry after being dumped. Even though, I already knew it that I can never get Aaron. Thank god I didn't tell him yesterday that I love him because if I had said it then I'd have made a bigger fool out of myself.

Honestly, deep down I was heartbroken, shattered after what happened. Just because I wasn't crying or showing it doesn't mean that it did not affect me. It affects me the most, I don't know if it was just some kiss for Aaron but for me it was way more something. What I felt while kissing him was something I've never experienced it before. It was just magical. And it hurts me so much that he turned me down. But thinking about how it was him who made the move to kiss me, because yes I was on top of him and I brought my face close to him but still I didn't leaned in and kissed him, he was the one who pulled me down my head and kissed me and just thinking that he made the move so he might have felt something is the only thing that's making me live. Or it could be that like he kisses every other girl so it wasn't a big deal for him. But why to look for the downside when I can just be positive, right?

Yes, so after all that going to school and facing him is not exactly on my top list today.

But still, like dad said 'school's waiting'.

So I got up and tried to be strong and after showering and everything I was dressed in a light green sleevless top and dark blue denim jeans.