IN BETWEEN

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Do I wanna know?

|Chapter eight|

DONT READ THIS CHAPTER YET!! ITS UNDER EDITING!!

Aaron's pov^

In my life, there have been plenty of moments where I feel so out of place, where I feel I could be anywhere but here. The feeling of being left out. The feeling of ignorance. Even with being surrounded by hundreds of people, you don't have that peace. You don't have that calm. Or maybe you had it before, but not anymore. Or maybe calm is a person. The one who makes you feel alright even if the world was burning up. The person who makes you feel like you're on top of the world. Always encouraging you, enlivening your spirit and not letting you die on the inside.

I had that person. I had her. But then I lost her.

Even after having everything in my life, I wasn't happy. Because the one thing that meant to me was taken away from me. And my whole world broke down. It shattered into millions of pieces.

That's how I felt right now.

I was adored by people. I've accomplished a lot at the age of twenty one. I was the youngest quarterback of football team and I knew I was good at it. Like good. I don't want to say this, but girls literally fell at my feet. They would fuck me in a heartbeat if I looked at them twice. But that's the thing, I don't. I have sex depending on my mood. And it's not hard finding for me. It's always me who will make the move for it, not them. Because even if they are obsessed with me so much, they're scared.

Scared of me.

But there is nothing more scary than an eternity on your own, nothing and nobody to talk to. You'd ask for pain just to feel something. I had Ashton with me throughout my life and he's the only person I can ever rely on. He has been there by my side through my ups and downs. I loved him like a brother, even though I don't express it. But that's just me I guess, I don't express. I don't need to be in your face all the time to prove it to you. And he knows it. He had helped me a lot in my past even though I knew how much he was hurting on the inside. He carries that smile so often trying to hide the pain but I know him. I know how much he got hurt that day. Atleast he still plays that smile on his face.

Me on the other hand, had just gone numb.

No compassion, no remorse, your soul turned to the dark side without a hope of recovery. So why not join the dark side? Why choose to be alone in your madness? There is the pleasure of cruelty, the joy of power. And deep down inside, I feel everyone is like that. You aren't pure enough to make it through the gates. So why live in between the light and the dark? After all, what is there to be afraid of when you are the monster?

The bar was hundreds of conversations told in loud voices, all of them competing with the rock music that dominates the atmosphere. The crowd was young, adults enrolled and even old people.

Levi winds his way through the warm bodies to order a drink–the dark local beer. Before the drink is poured he feels someone melting their body to his from behind and he turned around kissing that random girl who had arrived. I took a sip of my beer looking away from them.

If I could melt into this bar I'd be the vibe, move around as easily as the smoke. I'd soak in the laughter and the smiles, dance upon each octave in microscopic disco shoes. But I felt, that me was gone. I remembered as the night goes on, I'll be more comfortable in crowds like this, intoxicated by spirits and the moments all the same but not anymore.

"So any updates?" Find the.....

I explored my surroundings with my eyes leaving no stone unturned in when I caught a frame of what looked like a woman by the entrance far away from me. I couldn't see her face but I knew in a heartbeat it was her from her neon orange jacket that she held in her hands.

I smashed my glass down on the table, anger raging inside me and hunted towards her. What did she think she was doing?

She was mid conversation with the manager of this place when I announced my presence.

"Grayson." She stiffed at my voice and gulped.

Her wet black crop t-shirt fit her tightly and had fell from one shoulder a bit, and rain glistened across her chest and neck. The downpour pummeled outside and being here at past ten was a bad idea. She shouldn't be here.

Her eyes locked on me. And I gazed at her. I stepped closer to her, making her form getting more defined the closer I got.

Can't call u Skyler. U shouldn't be here.

Why did I have to make sure she was safe? I need to forget her. Get her out of my mind. I need to focus on that girl who was taken away from me. Yes. It was only her. It's all for her only. Not Skyler. Or no one. That's it. That's for sure.