You Hate Me, I Used to Love You (Completed)

Chapter 30

Hello guys! First off I can't believe I've got over 2,000 reads! Thank you! Yesterday we looked and I had 1.98k and we asked Cole if that was a big number and be said "shit that's huge" only if he knew....

I've had a horrible week :( so I believe I told you about how I've been really into 5 Seconds of Summer lately? Probably.

So Luke is my favorite. I was having a really hard time in my life like a month ago and I really just wanted to leave my house and stuff. I even went to the school to ask them to take me out of my home. And I was just looking stuff up and I found him and I literally just was like wow... I need to find him and thank him.

So yes, Luke Hemmings DID save me. So I wanted to repay him. What I did was write 40 pages on him and I still wasn't done. And people at school knew about it. Then on Monday these girls who don't even like 5SOS had gotten tickets and rubbed it into my face. You guys know how I am not allowed to see concerts right?

So I got extremely upset. Because Luke saved me. All of them did. And I just wanna see him and make him smile and happy like he's done for me. That's all I want.

So I couldn't even sit with those girls because that's where I sit in math. I got up, went by my teachers desk to get tissues and I was tearing and the boys at the table next to my teachers desk (yes Cole happened to be there) were like "You okay Brie?" And I said "I'm never okay but thanks for asking." They all looked so confused. I really couldn't take it anymore because I wanted to cry so badly.

"I've gotta get the fuck outta here." I said "Brianna, wait." Cole says. Like why does he have to be a jerk then try to comfort me like what the hell! After that I just ran out the door and looked back at him and he gave me the second most concerning look he's ever given me. It was full of fear, regret and worry.

I am extremely good at reading body language. Thank god.

I ran down the hallway as fast as I can and ran downstairs into the girls bathroom in the corner of the last stall I curled up with my head in my knees and bawled my eyes out. I skipped 1 whole period and half of the other.

I went back to class which was social studies and I dropped all my stuff. Ugh. Oh speaking of social studies, today we all got assigned seats. We have desks separated. So like rows of desks not touching. So of course, I get out behind Cole. Ugh. I'm literally like 5 inches away from him. I could like just kick him whenever I want.

But I was so upset, I skipped school the next day. I pretended to be sick. And those 40 papers I wrote about Luke, yeah some slut stole them. Like you know how each school has its slut that everyone knows about and watched out for? Yeah it's her.

I found out while I was at home because my friend Lucy had texted me because earlier that day I asked her to get it for me.

I literally dropped my phone and fell on the floor and started bawling. And I mean BAWLING. Thank god I wasn't in school because that would've been a nightmare. It already was. I was crying so hard I was gagging. Like if you follow my Instagram (@Hemmingsafx) you might've seen me crying. I was watching videos of Luke and it was horrible.

I was so afraid. I was afraid of what I was going to do, like I didn't know what I was going to do to myself. I was so scared. I was so upset. I've never been that sad. All I wanted to do was repay him of what he's done for me. I've never needed someone that bad before.

It was one of the worst days of my life.

So I came back the next day... Blah blah blah. School school school. Then in lunch I started crying bc I was listening to 5SOS and I just wanted to make him happy. That's it. Really.

Do you know what it's like to write 40 pages on someone you love? I worked SOOO hard on it.

Before all the papers were stolen I had a video of all of them on my kitchen table and you couldn't see the table because there were so many papers and people started tagging Luke. I ended up with over 400 comments. It was so sweet.

I hope you're all doing well! I love you! And remember you're all beautiful and perfect even if you think you're not. Thank you for all the reads! I love you sooo much this was so amazing to see. I thought this would have like 30 reads but I can't believe how many people think Coles a douche bag! Thank you! Keep on reading :) im pretty sure with my new seat there'll be some interesting moments coming..... XD