You Hate Me, I Used to Love You (Completed)

Part 79

In a way i kinda like it though bc i can do what i want without anybody knowing. I would like to be able to do all of this myself. 

I still do want out but i have ppl who kinda give a fuck so like whatever.

I don't care anymore. 

Obviously. But it doesn't make it okay for me to still be sad.

I really wish everything can be good again but idk. 

I tend to ignore when ppl tell me to stop bc it's my life. 

ppl i idolize do it so why can't I?

Everyone wants to be like their idol. 

I do at least. 

I wouldn't be making them happy but I'll be like them :-) 

I love them. I love them so much. They help me a lot. 

Actually they're the reason I'm writing still.

I can do what I want, I don't care who tf you are telling me to stop like bye bitch. 

It's still kinda sad though. 

Whatever