You Hate Me, I Used to Love You (Completed)

Part 43

9/23/15

guyssss omg. i cant believe how many reads! I have no classes with Cole this year. So i dont have much to say. 

Listen. I actually love him. i dont hate him. It's kinda hard this year. There's a Cole in one of my classes and i say "Cole" and he responds. My Cole never did (yes, he's mine) 

Cole is on crutches. He heard me Laugh at him when i saw him. he also heard me say "Aw. You're hurt. I hope it really hurts bc now you know how it feels. well. not even close"

he also told me tell a police officer in his car "i just wanna see my future" and the cop asked "you wanna be a cop?" and i said "no i'll probably be arrested" i was joking though. Cole was in the window across from me on the other side of the car. 

It was 9/11 so the fire trucks came (which was my fault bc i pulled the alarm, Lucy if ur reading this, i pulled the one by the main office) and police officers so we got to look around them and go in firetrucks and stuff. 

I yelled "STRAIGHT OUTTA COMPTON" in the hall and he replied "yes girl" and im like woah..... never called me girl before. 

Oh and Meghan is his like best friend. And it bothers me so fucking much. 

We're gonna be in High School next year so high schools are starting to come in and talk to us. Meghan wants to go to the one he wants. She's like "oh yeah, im going there" and i said "well you dont know for sure because you gotta apply" and she fucking says "well, i know im gonna get in because im a straight a student." i wanted to slap her. 

I hate how I KNOW this year will be Cole and I's last year together and i hate looking in the classroom and not seeing him there. I was so used to it. 

Well, thats pretty much all :-) On the last day of 8th grade i'll tell him about this journal and how all of you think he's a jerk. Im gonna put together a bunch of comments from you guys so comment what you want him to know or dm me :-) Please!