What don't I mess up? $1 billion question right there.
I wish nothing happened. I wish I never said shit. I wish I kept everything a secret. I'm sorry for letting it all out. I know. I'm stupid. I messed up again. Give me one more chance, this time I won't ruin it, this time I won't get scared, I won't run away. This time i'll be what you need.I know it's my fault... I'm sorry...People say things happen for a reason. I lost you, can you tell me the reason? I didn't think so. I lost you because i screwed up many times. You gave me many chances but yet i never made up my mind. I told you I hated people like that.But i guess now when I look at myself, I am that. You're so right. Everybody is. I'm the only one who's wrong right? It hurts to be ignored, but it hurts the most to see your best friend ignore you.I never lie unless it's to save my ass so when I tell you something you better believe me and if you don't then don't come crying to me when I'm right.I'm so tired of still holding on to parts of my past. People I can't let go, memories I can't leave behind... I carry stuff on my shoulders everyday that I shouldn't. :/
And I only say super mean shit when I'm upset. I wish I can take everything back. I wish I never opened my mouth. But when I am gone, remember, I'm not hurting anymore. I'm okay... And yeah, I'm negative. You haven't known me long enough to know I have ALWAYS been like that. When I say always I mean ALWAYS. I'm sorry that bothers you. That's just the way I am.
I know I messed up big time but I can't do anything about it and never will be able too.
And since you've been saying it, goodbye to you too. If I got the wrong message just tell me because I don't want my best friend to leave me. Because knowing you, I'll never get you back...
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You Hate Me, I Used to Love You (Completed)
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