You Hate Me, I Used to Love You (Completed)

Chapter 15

Well, its been an interesting week.

We were doing some weird group work in science and i had to sit with Cole. 

Its was awkward. He just looked at me the whole time. It was obvious he was trying not to make eye contact. 

I covered my face and peeked through my fingers only to find him staring at me. i just laughed it off.

Then later during Social Studies I had to do a presentation on a Island in Oceania and we chose Tuvalu cuz the capital is Funafuti which in my opinion sounds like Funafuti, so we went with that. so i was the one speaking and the whole time he just looked at me. i was trying not to look at him but i kept stuttering. i bet i got points taken off for how bad i was a presenting. 

Then when i read coconuts (cuz he calls my boobs coconuts) i laughed and he obviously knew why. 

Then my teacher said he wanted to see a picture of coconuts and i just started cracking up and looked at Lucy. god it was funny. 

Then on one of our slides on the government or something Cole kept arguing with another student over if there were feathers on the flag for the gov. 

Like wtf dude??

Wtf?

He clapped at the end though. 

But i said "Cole don't clap u faggot" But he didn't hear.

OKAY SO IDK IF I SAID HOW HE AND SOME OTHER KID WANTED A PHANIE PACK BUT THEY WERE ARGUING OVER WHO'D GET IT FIRST AND I'VE BEEN PLANNING EVER SINCE I SAT NEXT TO HIM IN MATH THAT I'M GONNA RUIN HIS LIFE AND GET IT FIRST AND I DID. 

HAAAAAAAAAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHHHHHHHHHHHHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

He was so pissed off.

I was able to tell by his face.

I felt like i did something right.

He was so annoying on Friday during math. He stopped being gay once he saw i was watching. 

I accidentally threw my guitar pick onto his table and he picked it up and i reached out my hand and said "Oh I'm sorry. That's mine. Thank you" and he didn't give it to me, he gave it to the kid who sits across from me. Wtf ????

Every time i put down my binder he looks at it. I have a picture of One Direction in it. He's probably thinking and wishing that he was hot like them.

My French teacher said i was having a love affair with Cole's best friend. it was really funny but embarrassing. Cole was right next to her when she said it and his head lifted right up. His friend got bright red.

Then the next day my teacher pointed out to him that he got shades of red and then he did again! i was just like wtf. then she went off telling a story about how two of her students got married and all. I was like omfg. 

I love that teacher.

She always talks about love. 

I think its funny cuz France is like a romance place or whatever and whenever she mentions stuff like that, Cole looks at me.

THAT FUCKING BOY FINDS EVERY WAY POSSIBLE TO LOOK AT ME! 

Honestly though. Literally, he must put it time and effort to figure out how to look at me.

He always "falls asleep" during science facing my direction and always opens one of his eyes at me.

I like when he looks at me.

I feel like I'm special.

Like one in a million.

Almost like I'm the only girl in the room.

Oh. i just remembered to tell you, 

He asked out Meg.

I told you he likes her. 

My heart fucking shattered all over the floor. 

I felt like i sucked in too much water and drowned.

I felt like i got stabbed.

Like I was all alone. 

Barren,

Trapped in my thoughts.

But Meg "Hates" him.

I'm not sure though.

I think she likes him.

She was snapchatting her friend and i looked at it and it was about the "CD" which is when we make fun of how small his dick probaly is. 

I literaly thought i was gonna stab someone.

I was like "Bitch back off. He's mine"

I had a good day today. It's Sunday. Well Monday now i guess. But whatever. Just go with me.

Today, like every other Sunday we go up to the gas station on our bikes where i buy breakfast. Then we spend the rest of the day on our bikes. 

Today we went to the stairs where juana is dealed so we went down there and i smashed a glass and then i went to we went to the preschool right in front of the stairs, i went to preschool there. But we saw 7 or more little pumpkins so we smashed most of them on our stairs.

There's this one old hag of a lady who thinks she owns the creek we live by so we always go down there and today i threw a pumpkin at her dock and she started pounding at the window for us to leave. We RAN onto our bikes and left so fucking fast. 

Everytime we're down at the creek she'll be stalking us in her window. 

Once she was walking around with a baseball bat.

Me and Meg could've been arrested so many times today.

And we write on the park in the center of our neighborhood.

Honestly, we dont care.

Then we went to my house and played scrabble and made all inappropriate words.

We're so bad. 

I know it sounds really bad but it's just us.

I wanna get the most out of it before it ends.

That phone is literaly breaking us up. 

I don't even know anymore.

I mean like, i'll say stuff to her and she'll shrug.

She don't care about me. 

Nobody does. gaaaahhh

I missed the second 1D DAY :(

I'll keep you updated

Bye