You Hate Me, I Used to Love You (Completed)

Chapter 10

You know, its real funny how you have the ability to hate someone so freaking much but love them too.

We had a test in language arts today and when we finish you go hand it in, in a tray and get new vocab words, index cards and paper for a story.

Now of course when i go to hand in mine Cole just HAS to come behind me...

I didn't realise it until i turned and said "of course" around then quickly got my stuff but I needed one more thing and it was missing so i just walked away and said as i was walking "um ms.DickAss (i was thinkin dat) there's no more vocab sheets" and cole goes "Yeah"

so she got up and got new sheets so i had to stand next to him.

then she gave me a 0 cuz the kid i sit with and cole starts shaking his head. wtf

In social studies some kid wanted my flower crown so i let him wear it then Cole noticed and gave him a weird looked then looked at me and looked into my eyes and i smiled and shrugged my shoulders.

So thats that.

Did I ever tell you how once i was talking to some kid in math about wishing i still had naptime and Cole goes "i pray we still have naptime"

i always tell you that he butts in all my conversations but i've realised just now that he completely ignores me when he does that.

And earlier this week i bumped COMPLETELY into him and shove Lucy in front of me and say "You did that"

i was eating yogurt yesterday morning and he comes up to me and says "Brie, you enjoying dat yogurt?" nodding his head. he called me Brie. Not Brianna. I said "oh im really enjoying my yogurt" "nice and creamy?" he asks "yup" and he walked away.

I really wanted to say "im enjoying it even more now that you're here" but i can't ever say that!

We call him cleats. cuz his ugly captin american lacrosse cleats. I hate saying his name.

it hurts me.

I truely do hate him thats the thing but yet i love him too.

I had to go put my book away in the shelf and he was over there so i looked at him until he left and he looked at me as he put them away and then i said "Good now i can put this away" to the girl who sits next to him making sure he can hear me so he didnt think i was just staring at him. 

And sometimes he'll go get a new paper in front of me and stop there. i dont know what he's doing as he's stopping.  (Is he looking at me Lucy?) I get all my info from lucy. She's like a mini blonde sherlock but goldilocks. 

In French when we were doing some weird station thing which was pretty fun and he sat across the room and as i was putting everything away he was just looking at me. the whole time we did the station he looked at me. he smiled and all.

When i was playing some game on the smart board, he looked at me. he watched me for 45 minutes......

Its always that straight face. 

His big brown eyes just staring at me all big.

I remember him kicking my feet when we sat together in math. Tbh, i wish i still sat there. I dont know we got along. 

Now in math he elbows me. Such an ass. 

Theres so many stories i can tell i just dont know where to start!

Its sunday now. well in my opinion still saturday. exactly 1:30. AM 

il est un heure trente midi ?

(Is that right Lucy)

But yeah...................................

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A/N:

Thank you for reads if some of u got this far..... But this is like a diary so keep up with me :)