You Hate Me, I Used to Love You (Completed)

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I fell in love with you, because you loved me when I couldn't love myself. Do you ever feel the need to ask someone if they actually still want you in their life because it always feels like they don't really care. And I'm sorry i'm still drunk and i'm sorry i was on the phone drunk with you like that. I feel safe when I'm with you.I wish I could be better for you. God, please make me better for you.I'm not the perfect girlfriend. I'll yet at you. I'll get jealous. I'm stubborn. I over think. I get insecure. My moods are like a roller coaster. I'll probably never listen to you and I'll never do anything right. But I promise you, that if I give you my heart it's yours. Keep it. I'll be loyal. I'll be here when you need me. I'll love you to the greatest extent I can. I'll treat you right and I'll do anything I can to hold our relationship together.I love you. He hates it when people focus on his looks, and although i fell for his soul and personality, i also fell for his eyes. the ever-changing colors that could deceive, captivated me, and i knew that i belonged to him. i could look into them, and a warm feeling that vodka couldn't match would fill my heart, and i would be okay. just for a little while.I love you. It's not because you make me happy, nor because you make me feel special, nor because you're the sweetest person ever. But because I just love you. And I don't need a reason for that.I don't want someone perfect, I want someone that's going to try, someone that will care, someone that doesn't have backup plans if it doesn't workout and someone that's going to talk through stuff with me because I'm the type of person that has a short temper, that gets jealous, has bad moods because I can't help it.I also am that person that's gonna be a bitch because that's how I handle things but I promise you, you'll never find anyone that will love you like I will because when I love, I don't hold back until I'm pushed down.I'm not the kind of girlfriend who needs to be showered with gifts or taken to fancy restaurants. I'm happy having you. I don't need anything else. You could pick a flower off the floor for me and I'd be overjoyed, or we could buy a pizza and eat it in a Walmart parking lot. As long as I'm with you I don't need anything else. You've already given me the gift of happiness and for me that's more than enough. Sometimes following your dreams can hurt you more than staying where you are, but it's worth it. Drive me around the city, under all the sky scrappers and lights, Dont talk to me, Just drive, I'll be at the backseats. Watching outside the window. Just drive, Until i fall asleep, Then take me back home. And place me under my blanket. and you play in that beautiful band i love ad you're the best..And that stupid name i call you that's supposed to be an inside joke that everyone else knows went to shit but it's still cute. If I died today would you be satisfied with the last conversation we had? Let that sink in.Don't give up on your dream because it is not going in the direction you want. There are different routes to the same destination. And I hope you're not mad because i keep telling you how proud i am of myself and it's probably annoying but bb, i did it and im almost there so let's be real, i'm gonna make it there. i'll catch that drream and hopefully you'll watch me and be proud of me. I think I just realized exactly how much you mean to me...