[1] Olivia Rodrigo | One shots/Imagines [F/M Readers]

Out Of My League (972)

Written: October 9th 2021
Edited: NOT YET

Author's note: my insecurities jumped out with this one so read at your own risk lol. Also I've been editing and re editing this for a while now.... So you better love it. 😒
I guess you could say this is the better version of 'Experienced'

You are a failure.
An absolute and utter failure. Maybe you are being a little overly dramatic but as you sit on the edge of the bed with her laying behind you - both of you completely naked - you can't help but feel like you failed her. What good is a girlfriend who can't even give you an orgasm?

Your muscles tense at the thought, something she must have seen as she sits up and climbs behind you. You have been sitting there in complete silence for 5 minutes now.

"It's okay, baby" she places her legs on either side of you and runs her fingers through your hair, de-tangling it in the process.

"No, it's not" you scoff. You're not mad at her. You're mad at yourself for not being able to give her the pleasure she gives you.

She wraps her arms around you to pull you close, her front flush against your bare back. You feel every curve and bump.

"I don't blame you" she mumbles into the skin on your shoulder before leaving a small peck there. A silent confession of love.

"Well, I do" you close your eyes, allowing yourself to live in the moment- in the embrace for a minute.

"It was your first time" she tries to make you see reason "Not everyone is great at their first time" she squeezes you harder as if trying to push the words into you.

"Still! You did amazing at your first time" you remind her of that night, her movements engraved into your memory.

"You were not my first"

"I know" a quick pang of jealousy washes through you at the thought that someone had the pleasure of having this wonderful woman before you. It's gone just as quick, your mind stepping in to remind you that you're not allowed to feel that way. Everyone has past experiences - well, everyone but you - but they are in the past. Maybe they were a better lover than you.

"I just wanted to do this one thing for you but I guess I can't even do that" the confession coming from deep within your heart.

"Baby" her voice is lined with pain and you hate yourself for making her feel this way. This was supposed to be about her, not you, but of course your selfishness prevents that from happening.

"We should break up" the words slip out of you in time with the tears gathering in your eyes.

"What?" she jerks back, her voice a few octaves higher and louder than normal. You remain motionless in your place. Your heart hurts.
"You want to break up because you couldn't make me cum with your tongue?" she almost shouts at you. The blunt statement would have had you blushing in other situations but right now was not the time.

"You deserve someone with experience who we both clearly know I am not" you shake your head in defeat, shoulders slumped.

"What are you even talking about?" she doesn't get quieter as she completely pulls away from you. You feel the mattress bounce as she moves around but you don't have the strength to look back. You stay silent as she gets off the bed, walks around it, and kneels in front of you.

Your eyes meet for the first time since you got off her minutes ago. You hate the worry that is swimming in her breathtaking brown orbs. (Lol I used orbs... just realized how cliche that is. What's next? Throwing your hair in a messy bun.)

"You deserve someone who can match you and be your equal" you whisper, your heart breaking because you know you are saying the truth. You're not enough for her.

"That's absolute bullshit" she grabs your hands in hers "You are my equal! Or did I make you feel differently?" her head tilts to the side, her eyebrows furrowed.

"No! Of course not" you shake your head "I just know that you're way out of my league and you deserve better" your voice breaks at the end of the sentence, tears now freely flowing down your cheeks. She will realize it one day.

"Listen baby" she comes closer to you and puts your hands on her cheeks "You're the most beautiful woman I've ever met. I'm lucky to have the chance to be with you and there is no one better I could find but you. It's not about who I deserve or not deserve it's about who I want and that person is you. Want me to let you in on a secret?" she smiles as you hesitantly nod in answer "I think you're the one who is out of my league" you roll your eyes at her cheeky smile "No, no seriously" her small laugh warms you up like the afternoon sun and you can't help but laugh along with her. She is wonderful.
"There is my beautiful girl" she wipes your tears away, both physically and mentally.

"I'm sorry" you press a small kiss into her palm.

"Never apologize for your emotions" she stares into your eyes "I want to know about every doubt and insecurity you have in that wonderful brain of yours so we can work on them together, yeah?"

"Yeah"

A/n: Can you guess how many times I used Olivia's name?

Zero...

Honestly I think this is one of my best ones yet. It's okay if you don't like it 🤠🔫

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Love you 3000 ~ Julia