We were inside the bathroom slash make-up area, im watching her putting on her make up. I dont understand why other girls has to put on too much make up. But ofcourse that thought only came up to my mind because of the very moment im into right now which is Julie putting on some make up. Kung ano ano na ang naiisip ko.
"Quit staring," i heard her say without looking at me.
"Hmmm?" may pagtataka kong tanong.
"Kanina ka pa nakatingin," tawa niya.
Really?
I smiled at her. Nakakaloko kasi ang ganda mo, if i could only tell her that.
"Masama ba?" i asked.
"Hindi naman," she answered and then put on a lip gloss.
She's fixing her hair when her phone beeps.
"Your Mom imessage-d you," i told her as i peek over her phone.
"Anong sabi, baby?" she asked.
"Okay lang bang hawakan yung phone mo?" may hesitation sa mukha ko at sa tono ng pananalita ko.
"Of course, babe!" she glared at me.
Okay okay. Naninigurado lang.
And then i read it aloud, "Anak, we'll see you real soon. We love you."
Napatingin siya sa akin.
"Is that all?" she asked and i nodded as i put back her phone on the table.
So, uuwi ang family ni Julie real soon. I sighed quietly when I remember something.
Napatawad ba kaya ako ni Tito? Or Tita? Or yung mga sibs ni Julie??
"What's wrong?" Julie asked when the silence grew deafening.
"Wala naman, love," pinilit kong ngitian siya. Pero this is Julie, alam niya kung totoo o hindi ang sinasabi ko by looking at my yes.
She stood infront of me.
"Tell me," she said in a serious tone.
It really took me a long minute to think whether or not to tell her what was running through my mind.
I held her hand not minding to look at her face, i said, "'I dont wanna see you ever again', was your dad's last words to me," i have no plan of telling Julie this but i have a strong feeling that i kind off need to say it.
Her expressions changed.
"Why didnt you tell me this before?"
"Kasi ayoko. Kasi alam ko yung feeling na ang dami daming doubt sa isang tao," i stood up and took a step away.
"Moe," she held my hand and suddenly i felt her palm on both side of my face.
"Dad and I talked about this one. It's true na nagalit si dad sayo before. Pero ngayon, i dont think na galit pa rin siya. Moe, i love you. And i dont need to explain myself to anybody about me loving you so dearly. Not even to you or to mom and dad or to anybody. I dont care what other people say. I dont care at all. Basta alam ko sa sarili ko, mahal kita," she looked deeply into my eyes.
"I'm sorry," i whispered. Im really sorry. I shouldve not brought this up. It's stupid to have this said aloud. I told myself that im gonna fight now. I cant be a coward and i cant allow myself again to be looking like an idiot in a corner watching everyting fall just like before.
She nodded and hugged me.
"Dont ever talk something about the past anymore. They're uninteresting. Look now," she let go and lifted her ring finger.
