We were home, then. Pumayag siya na mag usap kami pero sabi niya saglit lang. But she didn't answer any of my questions on our way home. Para lang akong
hangin. Now I feel her cold treatment. Pero okay lang. At least kakausapin niya ako. Gusto ko na ding magpaliwanag.
I took a deep sigh before entering our house.I went straight to the kitchen to check if there is something to drink but.. Right. I need to ask her.I went to
the living room and found her there sitting in her favorite spot. She's sitting on the sofa bed near the window.
“Do you want a cup of coffee or a glass of juice?” I offered but she shook her head.
“Is there anything you’d like to tell me?” She asked straight.
“Julie, I just want to….”
“..To say sorry? Magalona, it’s been three years. 3 years. We’re done. It’s okay now. You’re fine. I’m good,” she cut me in.
“I’m not gonna say sorry because I know you can’t stomach another sorry from me,” I answered. I looked at her beautiful face.
“What then?” She asked. Her brows met, forehead creased.
“Julie, please,” I walked a little closer to her.
“COME HOME. Please. COME HOME,” I pleaded. She met my gaze and all of a sudden she made a step and I heard her mumbled, “bullshit!”
"Julie.. Julie," This time, I held her hands so tight. I looked at her and she met my gaze.
"Please, Julie. Please? Let's give it a try. Let's try to work things out. Please give our marriage another chance, Julie," I pleaded. My tears run down my
face.
"Magalona, do you even know what you are saying right now?" Her brows met. Alam ko. Galit na galit na galit siya sa akin. Pero gusto ko ng ayusin ang lahat.
"Of course, I know," I answered. Im really nervous.
"Just to remind you, Elmo. That marriage was fake," the last word echoed in my ears.
"Elmo, hindi ko nga alam kung minahal mo din ako eh," there was a pain in her voice. I looked at her. There were tear in the corner of her eyes.
"Julie, Para sa akin, our marriage was never fake. I loved you. And I still do," I whispered.
"No, you never loved me, Moe," now she wiped her tears away. "Because in the first place, you shouldn't have left me. Pero sinunod mo pa din si Mommy mo.You
went away without telling me a word and left me broken," she breathe in.
"I didnt wanna do that."
"But you still left," she cried.
And silence fell over.
Should I tell her the truth?
"Julie, duwag kasi ako," I started and she nodded."Umalis ako to set you free. Hiyang hiya ako sayo. Wala man lang akong mukhang maiharap sa tao. Alam kong
pinagtatawanan nila ako noon. I was so stupid. Julie, believe me, wala akong alam sa plano ni Mom. You know i'm deeply inlove with you," I confessed.
She moved and looked at the window.
"Julie, ang hirap ipaliwanag. Ang tanga tanga ko. I was being controlled by anyone before. Ang tanga tanga ko," My eyes were filled with tears.
"Julie, hindi ko na kaya. I came back here, nagbabaka sakali na mapapatawad mo pa ako.But I guess I'm too late," I stared at the floor and heaved a deep
sigh.
"Hinarap ko ang mundo mag isa, Moe. Masakit. The cut was too deep," She spoke. I nodded. Paano niya ako mapapatawad?
"I know," I answered. "And I was right. Wala na akong babalikan," I smiled sadly and looked at her. "But Julie, I miss you so much. I miss US," she stared at
me.
"And right now, i'm trying my best to fight the urge of kissing you," I told her. I truly miss her. I wanna feel her in my arms the moment I saw her earlier.
"Moe," she whispered my name as she come near me. "I hate you," I heard her say as she held my face, her forehed touched mine. Hindi ko napigilan ang sarili ko, I kissed her hungrily. I just wanna feel her soft lips right now - now that she's with me. I dont care if she's mad. But everything is too quick.
"I love you, Julie," I murmured between our kiss. She didn't say a thing but the next thing that happened surprised me.
She kissed me back with the same intensity. I went deeper as I pulled her body closed to me not making a distance. She started crying.
"I was okay then, but you came back again," and then she threw herself to me and our lips met again.
The moment she said those words, I knew from the bottom of my heart that somehow, there is this little part in her heart that tells her she still love me.But I have t hear it from her.
No, we're not yet okay, because the cut wasnt healed yet. I dont even know what's gonna happen next. But all I know is I'm gonna love her whether or not she's gonna forgive me.
