Yesterday was pretty amazing and that talk I had with Father was deep and meaningful. I've been through a lot. 3 long months exploring little things about life and about the world were beyond amazing. This journey was long and meaningful one and beautiful. I'll never ever forget the happy and bad and sad and epic moments that I experienced. The lessons i have learned from this journey was priceless. It saddens me again when I thought of those people that I met along the way. They are the ones that helped me see the beauty of the world. They taught me everything I need to learn. Life is about taking risks, exploring roads, taking opportunities, making decisions and loving every thing and person that has a big part in your own heart and world.
I breathe in positivity, breathe out negativity. Good morning, world.
The sun rays are peeking through my window. I got up and went for a walk.
Im gonna miss this kind of morning. The trees, the air and the view.
I busy myself taking pictures when my phone started to vibrate.
Dev calling.
I havent spoken to her since.. I dont even know.
"Dev, hi," i inhaled.
"Moe?" She answered. There she is in her im-so-surprise voice again.
"Hey," i answered shortly.
"Ohmaygad, sinagot mo na yung tawag ko!!!" I heard her say and I chuckled.
"Dev, i know i have lots of explaining to do, but please.. Not over the phone," I sighed.
"OO MAGALONA! PAG IKAW HINDI NAKA-ATTEND SA BIRTHDAY PARTY KO BUKAS, ALAM MO NA. IPAPAHANAP KITA SA PULIS, AT AKO MISMO ANG MAGLILIGPIT SAYO," she said without taking a sec to pause.
I laughed.
"Oo Dev. Alam ko namang matagal mo ng plano yan. Pero alam ko mahal mo ako, kaya hindi mo ako ipapaligpit," I fired back.
"Huh! Talaga lang Magalona ha!" may pagbabanta pa rin sa tono ng boses ni Dev. This girl really.
"Pero Magalona, mag promise ka sa akin na makakarating ka bukas," her tone changes. My forehead creased for the first time today.
"Dev, is there something wrong?" i have to ask. I really have to. I havent heard anything from Her since the day I left.
She sighed again and answered, "Wala naman. Pero nahihirapan si bestfriend. Akala ko okay na siya na nakikipag date kay Jake. Pero alam mo yung.. Kulang.. Hindi ko ma-describe pero pag nakangiti siya, bakit wala akong nakikitang saya sa mga mata niya?"
I didnt even know she started dating Jake. That thought made me smile. At least she's trying. At least she's helping herself to move on and stand up.
"Dev, napapraning ka lang," i answered. Ayoko ng mag assume, ayoko ng mag isip ng kung ano ano. Ginagawa ko din ang lahat ng makakaya ko para maiwasan ng isipin ang nakaraan.
"Moe, hindi eh," there was a seriousness in her voice. I sighed.
"Dev, ill see you tomorrow," and then i hang up. Ayoko na kasi yung feeling na namimiss ko masyado si Julie pero wala naman akong magagawa. Yung gusto ko siyang halikan pero wala akong rason para gawin yun. Gusto ko man na mag isip ng positibo na kahit papano may pag asa pa ako pero hindi ko na dapat gawin yun. Ayoko ng isipin. Sa laban na toh, talo pa rin ako. Talo ako.
Looking at the view once more, i took another set of photo and went back to my room and pack.
It's time to go home.
