"Okay Rob, thank you." I turned off then my phone. We talked about it over and over but she's too stubborn and i cannot let this one go for the second time around. Rob called to inform me that he wasnt able to drive back Julie home tonight because of his flu. And he said Julie told him that she can handle herself and that she would call me to let me know about it.
After 5 minutes or so, i heard a car stopped at the garage and then the lights faded.
With the lights off inside our house, i waited for her to come in. She slowly unlock the door and went in as i saw her holding her shoes to avoid making noises. She was about to step on the first bar of our stairs when i spoke and that made her almost slip down.
"You shouldve called me to drive you home, you know," my voice was thick. Im trying not to get mad but 'what if's' filled my head. What if something bad happen? What if she hit something or someone along the way? What if she lose control of the break? What if she die?! Did she ever consider thinking of those? No. She didnt.
"Baby...." her guilty face turned to me. She knew where this conversation is heading.
"Julie, you know how much i disagree about you driving right?" Anger washed through me and i hardly control my words.
"Moe, wala kasi si Kuya Rob kaya ako na lang. Kaya ko naman kasi tapos...." and she's starting.
"Rob told me that you'd call me. But i didnt got any call from you!!!!" I almost shouted and then i saw her bit her lower lip as she bowed her head and looked at her fingers.
"Sorry," she breathed out. My forehead still creased as I study her face. Is that the only thing she'd say??? It's always like this. Im really scared.
"Julie wag kang magtatampo o magagalit sa akin pag nagagalit ako sayo. Because im too scared of the possibilities that may happen. I cant lose you. I dont wanna lose you! Which part of it is the one that you dont understand?" I half mad asked and she shook her head as i heard her speak again.
"I know. Hindi ko na uulitin. Im so sorry," she slowly lifted her head and she looked at me in the eyes.
"Magpahinga ka na," i sighed and she nodded. She went upstairs and i heard her slowly closed our double doors.
I heaved a deep sigh as I went to turn on my macbook and continue doing the listing thing that is part of our preparation.
I sent a messsge to Dev before the clock turns its arrow to 1.
"Done listing our God Parents. Will send you this morning. Good night Dev."
I didnt wait for her reply. I went upstairs to our room and hit straight the bathroom to wash my face and brush my teeth. After which, i climbed on our huge bed and tucked myself in and pulled the quilt over my shoulder.
As i wait for my eyes to fall on its own, i studied Julie's back for a second. And i realized that she's almost falling and really stayed on the edge of the right side of her bed and that once she move, she'll fall down. I remain silent for awhile. Her shoulders moved as she breathe in. Its my cue to move beside her to close our distance. My arm wrapped around her tiny waist and my lips traveled leaving a light kisses from her shoulder to her neck and to her hair.
"Baby.." i whispered and she didnt respond. I knew she's still awake.
I pulled her carefully to the center of our bed.
"Baby, im not mad at you. Im just really scared and worried of the things that may just happen to you and its killing me. You shouldve called me earlier," i whispered. With her eyes still shut, she moved on my side and slowly opened it. She didnt say a word and so am i. She moved closer and rest her head on my chest as i wrapped my arm on her shoulder.
