"Hi, love!" I answered and her face showed up on my phone screen.
"Hi, baby!! Did you just got home?" I can tell that she's worried because of her voice and facial expression.
"Yes, i just got home." And i leaned on the head board.
"Orange room?" She asked and I nodded. I'm sleeping here for a couple of days now. Our room seem to be so lonely without Julie there with me ao i have decided to use the orange room for the mean time.
"Nakaka-sad matulog sa kwarto natin. Dito muna ako," i pouted and so did she.
I heard her sigh after a minute and said, "I saw the interview."
"Uhm hmm," i made no sound but that.
"Are you okay? Pag uusapan na naman yan bukas. And I saw some articles spreading in the web. Some are negative. Some are positive," she informed me without breaking her gaze on me.
"I know, love. And I dont need to explain to them. But sometimes they go too much about us that makes me think na, okay lang ba talaga ako na para sayo?" Then that came on. Sometimes i wonder when the people stop making issues and end talking about negative things.
"Moe," Her voice became stronger.
I smiled. I can feel the awkwardness and weirdness of our conversation.
"Im so sorry about that, love." i suddenly apologized when i realized that what i was telling Julie was pure stupidity. Me and my ugly thoughts.
I massaged my forehead, closed my eyes, breathe in and breathe out.
"Im really sorry, love. Ang dami ko lang naiisip. At namimiss lang kita," i said. Which is really true. I told you, it was different when she is not with me.
"Moe, listen to me," she began.
"Dont ever listen to what other people say. I dont care and you must not care. Focus about you and me. Baby, do you understand me?" her voice was then shaky. What have i done?
"Yes. Sorry about that, love. Please come home soon," and my voice was pleading.
"I'll be home soon. Namimiss na kita!" she giggled and so am i. I-segue mo yan, Julie.
"Anyways love, wala ka bang gagawin today?" i have to distruct myself.
"Pupuntahan namin yung old museum downtown, baby. And then we'll go straight to the venue and rehearse," sabi niya while checking something on her ipad.
"Okay. Take care, love." i waved at her and she smiled.
"Thank you, baby. Are you gonna sleep now?"
"Nawp. I'll try to think of a few words tonight. Gusto kong subukang gumawa ng kanta," there was a huge smile on our faces.
"You'll do great. You always do," and then she winked at me.
I held my guitar as I play Come On Get Higher.
"Whoa!" there was astonishment in her voice.
"I miss the sound of your voice. It's the loudest thing in my head. And I ache to remember all the violent, sweet, perfect words thay you said.." I go on until I reached the chorus.
"Come on get higher, loosen my lips.
Faith and desrie and the swing of your hips.
Pull me down hard and drown me in love.."
She was shaking her head and smiling at the same time when i looked at her.
"I really really miss you," she whispered as she looked at the camera closer and stared at me.
I sighed. "You dont know how much I miss you around. Ang tahimik ng bahay. Walang kasama sa every meal. Walang kalangoy sa pool," i said as things flashbacks in my mind. Our memories together. How it felt to be kissed and touched by her. How i looked at her when she's kissing me and all good memories with her.
"That's enough, baby," she said and I nodded.
"Go try to wander there. See more places and meet a lot of peepssss? Enjoy yun love," i laughed.
"Yeah. Osige na. I gotta hang up now. Pupunta na ako kila Tita Tracy," shw said sadly.
"Oh, okay love. Ingat ha? Just message me whenever you are free," aking bilin at ngumiti siya.
"I will," she showed me her sweetest smile and my heart melts.
"I love you, Julie Anne San Jose." i smiled.
"I know. I love you, Elmo Moses Magalona." she blew me a kiss and then we both hang up.
Two weeks more before she come home. You can wait, I reminded myself.
I open my twitter account and her name flashed on my timeline. She just posted a tweet that says, "Come On Get Higher."
How i miss my dear.
I opened my instagram and cropped her picture that I took before - while she was recording as I captioned it as, "I MISS THE SOUND OF YOUR VOICE. IT'S THE LOUDEST THING IN MY HEAD."
And then my twitter timeline went wild with notifications again.
Two exactly different world. Different time zone and etc.
Good morning, love. And then i switch off my phone.
Silence took over as i closed my eyes again, focused on my breathing as my mind started thinking about my proposal.
There are so many things to worry about. And tomorrow will be a fun one. It's time for me to move. It's time to plan for the big day. I smiled.
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1:21 AM • so lame chappy. 😁✌ #goodnight
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