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Mood Swings

Ashton

I had beeen calling Avery all night.

All fucking night!

Sophie was cute and everything during the day, but at night... it's like Gremlins how you can't give them water and feed them after midnight. If Sophie wants a midnight feeding it's fucking awful. I didn't want Mia to do anything. Not because I didn't trust her. More because Sophie isn't her daughter. She isn't her responsability. Sophie is mine and Avery's. Avery who won't pick up her phone.

Last night was only my third night with Sophie and already I have lost so much sleep. I thought once they reached a certain age they were to stop all this waking up in the middle of the night crying. Least she has a bed. We managed to get a crib from Becca. I hadn't spoken to Becca in about two years so I found it really weird calling her up and asking to see if she still has Talia's old crib. Especially after what she did to Calum. That was kind of a bitchy move. I mean, Avery didn't know where I was so I'm a little bit more understanding towards her but even then it was still pretty bad. I missed everything. The sonograms, the doctors appointments, the actual birth of my first child. But Calum definitely had it worse than me. I only lost the pregnancy and nine months. Calum lost a whole two years. That includes first steps, first words, two birthdays, drawings, everything! Yeah, Calum and Becca's relationship didn't end peacefully and he was a super dick to her but he didn't deserve what he got. I wanted to tell Becca that when i was calling her but i left it out. I thought she wouldn't give me Talia's old crib.

But, it wasn't just Becca I was mad at. I was mad at Mia too. She shouldn't have kept this from me. She should've told me about Talia as soon as she found out. She should have told Calum! I don't care what Becca said to her, or Karlie, or Bella. Calum should have known, instead of them. But i wasn't going to tell Mia. It would just cause an argument we didn't need to have.

"Sophie," I begged as i rocked her in my arms as she screamed. "Please stop."

Mia wasn't in, she was at work and I was, for the first time, alone with Sophie. It wasn't going well.

"Please," I moaned. "I will do anything." Sophie kept screaming and it actually hurt me. It actually hurt me to hear my baby daughter in pain like this. I didn't even know what was wrong. I couldn't figure it out. I tried feeding her, I tried changing her, I thought she needed a bath (which fucking terrified me), none of it worked. She just kept crying. So now I was just pacing up and down the living room with her cradled in my arms.

"Soph," I sat down on the couch, holding Sophie to my chest. "Just try and somehow help me know whats wrong." Still nothing but screaming.

I sighed and rubbed her back. My mind wandered to the drum beat Calum showed me and told me to learn for the song he wrote. I then started thinking about the music and tune, then the lyrics, next thing I know I'm humming. I feel like I'm trying to hum over Sophie's cries, maybe that would calmher, but nothing. She still screams.

"Not the next big hit?" I kiss Sophie's tufty hair. She just cries. "I guess not." I sigh and pick up my phone from the coffee table.

One more time. I'm going to call her one more time. And she picks up almost immediatly.

"Ashton?" Avery says frantically.

"Avery." I say, my tone clearly showing my anger.

"Oh my god!" Avery exclaims. "You've been calling me all night! What happened! Is she okay?! Is that her!? Ashton what did you do?!"

"Nothing!" I yell back defensively. I can't believe that she just assumes I've done something. She's the one who left a nine month old baby on my doordtep and is expecting me to know what to do. She is the one who hasn't been picking up her damn phone. Why am I the bad guy? "She just won't stop crying." I complain.