The Daddy Club | 5sos au

Mess

Luke

I didn’t know what to say, or what to do.

I knew something was different about Karlie when I saw her walk out of baggage claim. She looked different somehow, but it was two months away from each other, of course she would look different. I didn’t quite understand how though. And then she saw me standing there. When I imagined our reunion I didn’t think it would go the way it did. I didn’t think she would stop walking and just stare at me. She just stared at me! I still thought nothing was wrong though. I still wanted to pretend like everything was okay and I was just imagining things. It was a long flight, she was tired. I was just going to take her home.

We got in the car after a brief catch up and kiss. We told each other how much we had missed the other person and how happy we were to be back with them. Even then something was wrong. But it wasn’t until we got back to Karlie’s apartment that I really noticed something was extremely different with her. Bella wasn’t in; I imagine she was with Michael at our house. Karlie slowly took of her jacket when I was in the kitchen, I was going to make us some coffee and we could talk some more. Then when she walked through I dropped the mugs and they smashed.

There was a small bump on her stomach. At first I thought, you know, it was just some weight gain and I wouldn’t have cared, at all. But I know what normal weight gain looks like and that isn’t it. Karlie saw my eyes widen and I could feel my breath stop as I looked to her for answers. She sighed and walked towards me, for some reason I took a step back so my back was against the refrigerator. I felt bad after but in that moment I was just really confused.

“K-Karlie…?” I stuttered out, still staring at her small bump.

“Luke,” She sighed back. “I really have to talk to you.”

It was when she said those words I began to panic.

“Talk? Talk?” I felt really defensive for some reason. I felt like she was attacking me or something like that. “Talk? About what?”

“When I was with mum,” Karlie said slowly, she could see the state I was getting myself in. “I found out something… I guess I shouldn’t have been surprised, I had sort of already worked it out for myself before I left. It wasn’t until I got there, and mum…” Karlie was letting the words just fall from her mouth as I stood in silence, my mouth hanging open. “I spoke to her about what I was feeling, nausea, dizziness, aches and pains…” Karlie trailed off. “She told me that I should probably take a pregnancy test.” Karlie said slowly to me. I felt like just screaming. Or maybe picking up on of the bits of the broken mugs from the floor and jabbing it in my eye. That isn’t an exaggerating, my world was ending.

“So I did, and…” Karlie rubbed her stomach slightly. “Luke, please say something, please?”

That’s where I am now. I just don’t know how to respond. I just want to run away and never look back. Fuck! I was careful! I was really, really carful! I knew I had to be because we couldn’t do this. Not now anyway. Karlie wasn’t doing anything but working, and that annoyed me because she could’ve came to Uni with me but just wanted to work instead. I wasn’t even near finishing my first year. I can’t be a dad. I’m not a dad.