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Doubts

Bella

"Is it weird?" I sigh out, feeling the curl of my hair fall onto my shoulder.

"Is what weird?" Mia asks me as she continues to pick up another piece of my hair and curl it too.

"This,"'I gesture at myself in the mirror. "The party today."

"No," Mia frowns l, eyes on the blonde hair she just wrapped around the hot wand. "Lots of couples have engagement parties. True, it's normally not two months after the engagement and the bride isn't normal four months pregnant, but it's not weird."

I let out a sigh. Mia didn't really know what I was getting at. "No, I mean the fact we are still having the party. No one has heard from Calum is days, he disappeared from the apartment on Thursday night and just never came home, no has seen Luke in the flesh and he's only spoken to Karlie ever since... you know," I may or may not have let it slip to Mia as to why Luke might have disappeared from our lives. I thought she would deserve to know. I made her swear not to tell Ashton though, he would make sure Karlie knew right away. "Then there is the whole Sophie thing and-"

"Sophie is fine now, you've seen her, she just needs to be out getting enough fresh air and kept away from certain things that could cause an attack." Mia finishes of my hair, switching the curlers off and letting out a little sigh. "She's got her inhaler, we know that her cot is better in Ashton and I's room just for now so Ashton can clear out all his art stuff from her room. We think it might have been something in his powder paints or his paint remover."

I nod, looking at myself in the mirror. I looked pretty but didn't feel much. Part of me felt like I just had to get tonight over with, for Michael's sake. He was really excited and I've not been fair to him recently. He's trying so hard and I've been nothing but a stone cold bitch. I just keep wanting to fight with him, about everything. I did feel bad but I also felt a sense of release when I got angry. Becca told me it was the pregnancy hormones but now I was starting to worry it wasn't just that. Maybe it was something more. Maybe I genuinely liked fighting with Michael. Is this what the rest of our lives are gonna be like? Us just constantly fighting one another? I couldn't live with myself if we became the couple who only got married because they got knocked up too early on. I didn't want to be the wife who was only with her husband because of the baby they shared. That's not what marriage is about at all.

"Bell," I feel Mia grab my shoulders. "What's wrong?" She asks softly.

I look at my reflection in the mirror and see tears swelling in my eyes. I suppose I wasn't being too discreet about my feelings and emotions right now. "Nothing," I shake my head and blink back the years. "Just the pregnancy." I smile up. "Honestly it's nothing."

"Bella," Mia says to me sternly. "What is going on with you and Michael right now?" She could, of course, see right through me.

"Are we..." I bite my lip to stop myself from saying too much without really thinking about what I want to say. "Do you think me and Michael are making a mistake?"

I watch Mia's face change in the mirror. It went from a look of concern to a face of shock. Mia's lips part and her eyebrows furrow. "Oh," She lets out with little bit of breath. "Do you think it's a mistake?"

"I don't know," I stand up, no longer wanting to look at myself in the mirror. "That's why I was asking you." I storm away from the vanity table and over to Karlie's bed, where my dress lay. Getting ready at the apartment was out of the question. Michael and Ashton had pretty much taken the place over to decorate. I was nervous as to what to expect from the boys but Michael seemed so happy at the idea of getting the apartment ready for a party I couldn't say no. Plus he was the one who wanted this party in the first place, he should be the one to organize everything.