I watch as I go through the day by laughing and smiling
Saying the right things
But every day I hit my house all those laugher and smile faded away and at night I would cry myself to sleep
Not knowing what I am feeling or what's wrong
As I tucked away in my bed with only my thoughts to hold me
Wishing this ache pain will go away
Feeling my heart feel heavy
As I cover my mouth to make my criers softer and quieter as everyone falls asleep for the night thinking I'm okay
Wishing for someone to notice me to just hug me
Not noticing how short my texting has been
How much more I been sleeping
How little or how too much I ate
Or how I don't text first to not even replying
I'm just exhausted
I'm exhausted of everything
For now
